now,  usually i feel  good (maybe?), but 
 this  time  of confusion also  leads  to 
 all  analyzes  ending in  "useless"  - i 
 was being  bothered  by something  in  a 
 song or movie  or book, so  i think, how 
 would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the 
 purpose of  this  process,  what does it 
 consist  of...? and through  the process 
 more  and  more pieces falls  off  until 
     i'm standing there with nothing.     
                                          
 reductionist hell -                      
 i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        
 bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    
 abstract they are, the things, until     
 they cease to be things at all           
                                          
 are we just stacked triangles? there is  
 nothing i can do with triangles. they    
 can not shelter me in any meaningful     
 sense.                                   
                                          
 and when i can't even anchor myself,     
 when i am nothing but the question, it   
 feels like it can all slip through my    
 fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    
 was after that.