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,,@@,,,,,, now, usually i  feel good  (maybe?), but @@@,,,,,,,
@,,,,@@@@@ this  time  of confusion also  leads  to @@,,@@@@@@
,,@@,,@@@@ all  analyzes ending in  "useless"  -  i @,,,,@@@@@
,,,,,,,@@@ was  being  bothered by  something  in a ,,@@,,@@@,
@@@@@@,,@@ song or movie or  book,  so i think, how ,,,,,,,@,,
,@@@@,,,,, would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the @@@@@@,,,,
,,@@,,@@@@ purpose of  this process,  what  does it @@@@@,,@@@
,,,,,,,@@, consist of...?  and through the  process @@@@,,,,@,
@@@@@@,,,, more  and  more pieces falls  off  until ,@@,,@@,,,
,@@@@,,@@,     i'm standing there with nothing.     ,,,,,,,,@,
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@,,,,@@@@@ reductionist hell -                      @@@@@@,,@@
,,@@,,@@@@ i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        @@@@@,,,,@
,,,,,,,@@@ bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    @@@@,,@@,,
@@@@@@,,@@ abstract they are, the things, until     ,@@,,,,,,@
@@@@@,,,,, they cease to be things at all           ,,,,@@@@,,
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,,@,,,,@@, are we just stacked triangles? there is  ,,,,,,,,@@
,,,,@@,,,, nothing i can do with triangles. they    ,@@@@@@,,,
@@@,,,,@@, can not shelter me in any meaningful     ,,@@@@,,@@
@@,,@@,,,, sense.                                   @,,@@,,,,@
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,,@@@@,,@@ and when i can't even anchor myself,     @@@@@,,,,,
@,,@@,,,,@ when i am nothing but the question, it   @@@@,,@@@@
,,,,,,@@,, feels like it can all slip through my    ,@@,,,,@@@
,@@@@,,,,@ fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ,,,,@@,,@,
,,@@,,@@,, was after that.                          ,@@,,,,,,,
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