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#@£¤%§†~^¨ I   WAS    THINKING   TO    STOP   DOING ¨^~†§%¤£@#
@@£¤%§†~^¨ HALLUCINOGENS IN  THE  WINTER  BECAUSE I ¨^~†§%¤£@@
£%%%%§†~^¨ DO  NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL THEY HAVE  BEEN ¨^~†§%%%%£
#@£¤%§†~^¨ ANYWAY?  I GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE ¨^~†§%¤£@#
##@£¤%†~^¨ THEM,  THE LAST FEW TIMES AT  LEAST, AND ¨^~†%¤£@##
@£%††~^¨¨¨ THERE ARE PLENTY OF  SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨¨¨^~††%£@
#@£¤%§†~^¨ REALLY DO NOT LIKE,  AND THERE  WILL  BE ¨^~†§%¤£@#
#@£¤%§†~^¨   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   ¨^~†§%¤£@#
#@£¤%§†~^¨ ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM  THINGS  THAT   I ¨^~†§%¤£@#
#@£¤%§†~^¨ HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR A ¨^~†§%¤£@#
@£%†^¨¨¨¨¨ LONG TIME  I  COULD  NOT  SEE A  CERTAIN ¨¨¨¨¨^†%£@
##@£¤%§~^¨ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS ¨^~§%¤£@##
#@£¤%§†~^¨ ... AND I SHOULD  AVOID TO  RUIN ALL THE ¨^~†§%¤£@#
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#@£¤%§†~^¨    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     ¨^~†§%¤£@#
#@£¤%§†~^¨ INCREASED  OR  AT  LEAST THE BURN-INS IN ¨^~†§%¤£@#
¤§††††^¨¨¨ THE  EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS ¨¨¨^††††§¤
#@£¤%§†~^¨ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID   NOT  DO  IT ¨^~†§%¤£@#
#@£¤%§†~^¨ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK  TOO MUCH ¨^~†§%¤£@#
#@£¤%§†~^¨ COFFEE. MAYBE  I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL ¨^~†§%¤£@#
#@£¤%§†~^¨             THESE THINGS UP.             ¨^~†§%¤£@#
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¤¤¤%%§†~^¨ WHAT A LOAD OF  CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" ¨^~†§%%¤¤¤
¤%§†~¨¨¨¨¨ CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW VAGUE  THEY  ARE ¨¨¨¨¨~†§%¤
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#@£¤%§†~^¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I ¨^~†§%¤£@#
¤%%%%§†~^¨ CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S ¨^~†§%%%%¤
¤¤%††~~¨¨¨ THOUGH, RATHER  JUST  FIELDS AND MOTION. ¨¨¨~~††%¤¤
#@£¤%§†~^¨ NOW AND THEN I HEAR  THIS  SOUND (A REAL ¨^~†§%¤£@#
##@£¤%§†^¨     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    ¨^†§%¤£@##
££%§§§†~^¨  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  ¨^~†§§§%££
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