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,&&,,&&&&,                 ,,§@§,,                  &&&,&,,&&,
&,&,&,,,&&             ,,=$@@####@@$=,,             ,,&&&,&,&,
&&&&&,,&,&         ,,,,,»$@ dreams @$»,,,,,         ,&,,&&&&&&
,,,,&,&&&&             ,,=$@@####@@$=,,             &&,&,,,,,,
,,,&&&,,,&                 ,,§@§,,                  ,&&&,,,,,,
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,&&,&&,&,,                   ,,,                    &,&&,,,,,,
&,&&,&&&,,                 ,§&@#@&§,                &&,&,,,,,,
&&,&&,,&,&                    ,,,                   ,&&&,,,,,&
,&&,&,&&&,                                          &,,&,,,,&,
&,&&&&,,&,         internal visionary state         &,&&,,,&&,
&&,,,&,&&&                                          &&,&,,&,&&
,&,,&&&,,&            the spirit travels            ,&&&,&&&,,
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,&&&,&&&&,             ,,=$@@####@@$=,,             &,&,&,&&,&
&,,&&,,,&&                   ,»,                    &&&&&&,&&&
&,&,&,,&,,                                          ,,,,,&&,,,
&&&&&,&&,,                  a cost                  ,,,,&,&,,&
,,,,&&,&,,                (anecdote)                ,,,&&&&,&,
,,,&,&&&,&                                          ,,&,,,&&&,
,,&&&,,&&,                    ,,                    ,&&,,&,,&,
,&,,&,&,&&                                          &,&,&&,&&,
&&,&&&&&,, i   wake  suddenly,  and  for  a  second &&&&,&&,&,
,&&,,,,&,& everything is completely calm  and  dead ,,,&&,&&&&
&,&,,,&&&& silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,,&,&&,,,&
&&&,,&,,,, slowly   start  to   piece  together  my ,&&&,&,,&,
,,&,&&,,,,        consciousness and my body.        &,,&&&,&&&
,&&&,&,,,&                                          &,&,,&&,,&
&,,&&&,,&, then  the  fear   hits  me  and  i  feel &&&,&,&,&&
&,&,,&,&&,    acutely sick. something is »wrong».   ,,&&&&&&,,
&&&,&&&,&,                                          ,&,,,,,&,&
,,&&,,&&&&                    ,,                    &&,,,,&&&,
,&,&,&,,,,                                          ,&,,,&,,&,
&&&&&&,,,, there are  circles and crosses inscribed &&,,&&,&&,
,,,,,&,,,& all over my  vision,  pressing in, being ,&,&,&&,&&
,,,,&&,,&& almost hostile. i can feel  them squirm, &&&&&,&&,&
,,,&,&,&,&    their internal logic changing and     ,,,,&&,&&&
,,&&&&&&&& grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like ,,,&,&&,,&
,&,,,,,,,& language, sentences  i can't  hide from, ,,&&&,&,&&
&&,,,,,,&, forcefully  transcribed in my  mind, and ,&,,&&&&,&
,&,,,,,&&&            doing damage there.           &&,&,,,&&,
&&,,,,&,,,                                          ,&&&,,&,&,
,&,,,&&,,, then i  realize  i  can't hear  anything &,,&,&&&&&
&&,,&,&,,&     because there's something there      &,&&&,,,,&
,&,&&&&,&,    already, droning everything out, a    &&,,&,,,&,
&&&,,,&&&& rapid melody,  almost  caustic  in  it's ,&,&&,,&&,
,,&,,&,,,,         particular microtonality.        &&&,&,&,&&
,&&,&&,,,,                                          ,,&&&&&&,&
&,&&,&,,,,                    ,,                    ,&,,,,,&&&
&&,&&&,,,&                                          &&,,,,&,,,
,&&,,&,,&& my surroundings  are entirely calm. it's ,&,,,&&,,&
&,&,&&,&,&             almost mocking.              &&,,&,&,&&
&&&&,&&&&,                                          ,&,&&&&&,,
,,,&&,,,&& i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must try  to &&&,,,,&,&
,,&,&,,&,& escape. to crawl on the floor  searching ,,&,,,&&&&
,&&&&,&&&& relief, such is  my  nature. turning the ,&&,,&,,,&
&,,,&&,,,&     lights on does nothing... getting    &,&,&&,,&&
&,,&,&,,&,  outside does nothing... drinking water  &&&&,&,&,,
&,&&&&,&&, does  noting...  but time  does -  after ,,,&&&&&,&
&&,,,&&,&&     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ,,&,,,,&&,
,&,,&,&&,, doubting  anything  of this happened  in ,&&,,,&,&&
&&,&&&,&,&             the first place.             &,&,,&&&,&
,&&,,&&&&,                                          &&&,&,,&&,
&,&,&,,,&& my eyes are  still tense though, scared. ,,&&&,&,&,
&&&&&,,&,& i    don't   know    what    to    make. ,&,,&&&&&&
,,,,&,&&&&                                          &&,&,,,,,,
,,,&&&,,,&              but i'm tired.              ,&&&,,,,,,
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,&&,&&,&,,                     ,                    &,&&,,,,,,
&,&&,&&&,,                 ,,»=»,,                  &&,&,,,,,,
&&,&&,,&,&                    ,                     ,&&&,,,,,&
,&&,&,&&&,                                          &,,&,,,,&,
&,&&&&,,&, this can  happen  if you wander too far, &,&&,,,&&,
&&,,,&,&&& i guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless &&,&,,&,&&
,&,,&&&,,&              when dreaming?              ,&&&,&&&,,
&&,&,,&,&, i  imagine  a  prick on the nose, that's &,,&&,,&,,
,&&&,&&&&, what these are. like  you do with  a cat &,&,&,&&,&
&,,&&,,,&& who comes  to  close to your sandwich... &&&&&&,&&&
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