Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At  Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours,  It Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful,  But I Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.