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###§£**«,. hallucinogens  in  the  winter because i .,«**£§###
###§£**«,. do  not know how useful  they  have been .,«**£§###
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###§£**«,. there are plenty  of side effects that i .,«**£§###
###§£**«,. really do not like,  and  there  will be .,«**£§###
###§£**«,.   associations with these mini-anxiety   .,«**£§###
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###§£**«,. the   eyes,  and  sometimes   stuff   is .,«**£§###
###§£**«,. breathing  now,  they  did   not  do  it .,«**£§###
###§£**«,. before. but maybe  i just drank too much .,«**£§###
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###§£**«,.             these things up.             .,«**£§###
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#§***,.... what a load of  concepts  this "reality" ....,***§#
#§£*««,... consists  of,  and  how vague  they  are ...,««*£§#
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###§£**«,. hours, it  will no longer be dark when i .,«**£§###
###§£**«,. close  my   eyes,   not  actually  cev's .,«**£§###
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##§§£**«,. now and then i  hear this sound  (a real .,«**£§§##
§***«.....     sound (i think)), resembling some    .....«***§
§**«,,....  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ....,,«**§
#§§£***«,. and it  is always  unpleasant,  i become .,«***£§§#
####£**«,. so stressful, but i  think it  has to do .,«**£####
###§£**«,.        with the novelty. i hope.         .,«**£§###
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