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@£@=*~,¨¨¨ I   WAS    THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING ¨¨¨,~*=@£@
#@£@=*~,¨¨ HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE WINTER BECAUSE  I ¨¨,~*=@£@#
##@£@=*~,¨ DO NOT KNOW  HOW  USEFUL  THEY HAVE BEEN ¨,~*=@£@##
#@£@=*~,¨¨ ANYWAY?  I  GET SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE ¨¨,~*=@£@#
@£@=*~,¨¨¨ THEM, THE  LAST  FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND ¨¨¨,~*=@£@
£@=*~,¨¨¨¨ THERE ARE PLENTY OF  SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨¨¨¨,~*=@£
@=*~,¨¨¨¨¨ REALLY  DO NOT  LIKE, AND THERE  WILL BE ¨¨¨¨¨,~*=@
=*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   ¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*=
*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM  THINGS   THAT  I ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*
~,¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ HAPPEN TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨,~
*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ LONG  TIME  I  COULD NOT SEE  A  CERTAIN ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*
=*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨ KIND OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS ¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*=
@=*~,¨¨¨¨¨ ...  AND I SHOULD AVOID  TO RUIN ALL THE ¨¨¨¨¨,~*=@
£@=*~,¨¨¨¨            SEASONS THIS WAY.             ¨¨¨¨,~*=@£
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#@£@=*~,¨¨    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     ¨¨,~*=@£@#
@£@=*~,¨¨¨ INCREASED OR  AT  LEAST THE  BURN-INS IN ¨¨¨,~*=@£@
£@=*~,¨¨¨¨ THE   EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS ¨¨¨¨,~*=@£
@=*~,¨¨¨¨¨ BREATHING   NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT ¨¨¨¨¨,~*=@
=*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I  JUST DRANK TOO MUCH ¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*=
*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ COFFEE. MAYBE  I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*
~,¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨             THESE THINGS UP.             ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨,~
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£@=*~,¨¨¨¨ IT COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, ¨¨¨¨,~*=@£
@£@=*~,¨¨¨ WHAT  A LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" ¨¨¨,~*=@£@
#@£@=*~,¨¨ CONSISTS  OF, AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE ¨¨,~*=@£@#
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£@=*~,¨¨¨¨ IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY ¨¨¨¨,~*=@£
@=*~,¨¨¨¨¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER  BE DARK WHEN I ¨¨¨¨¨,~*=@
=*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨ CLOSE   MY   EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S ¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*=
*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ THOUGH, RATHER JUST  FIELDS AND  MOTION. ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*
~,¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ NOW AND  THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨,~
*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨¨    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*
=*~,¨¨¨¨¨¨  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  ¨¨¨¨¨¨,~*=
@=*~,¨¨¨¨¨ AND  IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I  BECOME ¨¨¨¨¨,~*=@
£@=*~,¨¨¨¨ SO STRESSFUL,  BUT  I THINK IT HAS TO DO ¨¨¨¨,~*=@£
@£@=*~,¨¨¨        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.         ¨¨¨,~*=@£@
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