EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS    THINKING   TO   STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO  NOT KNOW  HOW USEFUL THEY  HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY? I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST  FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE  EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY  DO  NOT LIKE, AND  THERE WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM   THINGS   THAT  I 
 HAPPEN TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I COULD NOT  SEE  A  CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I SHOULD AVOID  TO RUIN  ALL THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR AT  LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE   EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF  IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,   THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK  TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND  MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A  LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER  BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,   NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND  MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT  IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO  STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO  DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.