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§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§                    EH                    §§§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§                     ~                    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ I   WAS   THINKING   TO    STOP    DOING §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ HALLUCINOGENS IN  THE  WINTER  BECAUSE I §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ DO NOT  KNOW HOW USEFUL  THEY HAVE  BEEN §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ ANYWAY? I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ THEM,  THE  LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT  I §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ REALLY  DO NOT LIKE,  AND THERE WILL  BE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM  THINGS  THAT   I §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR A §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ LONG TIME I  COULD  NOT  SEE  A  CERTAIN §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING ANXIOUS §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ ... AND I SHOULD AVOID  TO RUIN  ALL THE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§             SEASONS THIS WAY.            §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§¨§¨§§¨§                    ~                     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§¨§¨§§¨§     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ INCREASED  OR  AT LEAST THE  BURN-INS IN §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ THE  EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ BEFORE.  BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§             THESE THINGS UP.             §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§¨§¨§§¨§                     ~                    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ IT COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ WHAT A LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ CONSISTS OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§¨§¨§§¨§                    ~                     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR ABOUT  TWENTY §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ HOURS,  IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY   CEV'S §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ THOUGH, RATHER JUST  FIELDS AND  MOTION. §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ NOW AND THEN  I HEAR THIS  SOUND (A REAL §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ AND IT  IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨§§¨§ SO  STRESSFUL, BUT I  THINK IT HAS TO DO §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§¨§         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.        §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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