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...,~†^&¤#                    eh                    #¤&^†~,...
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...,~†^&¤# i    was   thinking    to   stop   doing #¤&^†~,...
....,~†^&¤ hallucinogens in  the winter  because  i ¤&^†~,....
.....,~†^& do  not  know how useful they  have been &^†~,.....
......,~†^ anyway?  i  get  so  tense when  i  take ^†~,......
.......,~† them, the last  few times at least,  and †~,.......
........,~ there are  plenty of side effects that i ~,........
........., really do  not  like,  and there will be ,.........
..........   associations with these mini-anxiety   ..........
.......... attacks   with   random  things  that  i ..........
.......... happen  to  see...  for  example, for  a ..........
........., long  time  i  could not see  a  certain ,.........
........,~ kind  of leaf  without  getting  anxious ~,........
.......,~† ... and  i should avoid to ruin  all the †~,.......
......,~†^            seasons this way.             ^†~,......
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..,~†^&¤##     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    ##¤&^†~,..
.,~†^&¤### increased  or  at least the  burn-ins in ###¤&^†~,.
..,~†^&¤## the   eyes,   and  sometimes   stuff  is ##¤&^†~,..
...,~†^&¤# breathing  now,  they  did  not  do   it #¤&^†~,...
....,~†^&¤ before. but  maybe i just drank too much ¤&^†~,....
.....,~†^& coffee.  maybe i'm scared and making all &^†~,.....
......,~†^             these things up.             ^†~,......
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.......... it  comes  to me  sometimes  that  shit, ..........
.......... what a  load of concepts  this "reality" ..........
.......... consists of,  and  how  vague  they  are ..........
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......,~†^ if i  do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty ^†~,......
.....,~†^& hours,  it will no longer be dark when i &^†~,.....
....,~†^&¤ close  my  eyes,   not  actually   cev's ¤&^†~,....
...,~†^&¤# though,  rather just fields and  motion. #¤&^†~,...
..,~†^&¤## now  and then i hear  this sound (a real ##¤&^†~,..
.,~†^&¤###     sound (i think)), resembling some    ###¤&^†~,.
..,~†^&¤##  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ##¤&^†~,..
...,~†^&¤# and it is  always  unpleasant, i  become #¤&^†~,...
....,~†^&¤ so stressful,  but i think  it has to do ¤&^†~,....
.....,~†^&        with the novelty. i hope.         &^†~,.....
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