THE FEELING FO "SOMETHIGN IS  WRONG WITH 
 THE WORLD"   - IN  A  VERY PROFOUND WAY, 
   IN A DOUBT-YOUR-EVERY-QUALIA WAY, IT   
 NEVER DISSIPATED. JUST  GREW USED TO IT, 
                NUMB TO IT                
                                          
   MAYBE EVEN FILTERED SUBCONSCIOUSLY TO  
     RELIEVE THE GROWING TENSION AND      
              DISILLUSIONMENT             
                                          
 THAT'S  PERHAPS  THE  DRAW  OF  STORIES, 
  MYSTERIES AND "MAGISCAL REALISM", MOST  
 HORROR   STORIES   EVEN   -   THERE   IS 
   CONFIRMATION. SOMETHING REALLY IS    
 THERE. WHAT IT IS IS  NOT THAT IMPORTANT