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.......... the feeling  fo "somethign is wrong with ..........
.......... the world"    - in  a very profound way, ..........
..........   in a doubt-your-every-qualia way, it   ..........
.......... never dissipated. just grew used to  it, ..........
..........                numb to it                ..........
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........,~   maybe even filtered subconsciously to  ~,........
.......,~†      relieve the growing tension and     †~,.......
......,~†^             disillusionment              ^†~,......
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....,~†^£§ that's  perhaps  the  draw  of  stories, §£^†~,....
...,~†^£§#  mysteries and "magiscal realism", most  #§£^†~,...
..,~†^£§## horror   stories   even   -   there   is ##§£^†~,..
.,~†^£§###    confirmation. something really ,is,   ###§£^†~,.
..,~†^£§## there. what it is is not  that important ##§£^†~,..
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