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,,@@@@,,,, the feeling fo "somethign is  wrong with @@,@@,,@@@
,@,,,@,,,, the  world"   - in  a very profound way, ,@@,@,@,,@
@@,,@@,,,@   in a doubt-your-every-qualia way, it   @,@@@@@,@@
,@,@,@,,@, never  dissipated. just grew used to it, @@,,,,@@,,
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,,,,@,@,,,  maybe even filtered subconsciously to   ,@,@,,,@@@
,,,@@@@,,@      relieve the growing tension and     @@@@,,@,,@
,,@,,,@,@,             disillusionment              ,,,@,@@,@@
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@,@,@,,,,, that's  perhaps  the  draw  of  stories, ,@,,@@,@@@
@@@@@,,,,,  mysteries and "magiscal realism", most  @@,@,@@,,,
,,,,@,,,,@ horror   stories   even   -   there   is ,@@@@,@,,@
,,,@@,,,@@    confirmation. something really ,is,   @,,,@@@,@@
,,@,@,,@,@ there. what it is  is not that important @,,@,,@@,@
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