party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage,  and as i 
 start  to unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the   shower  and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien]  who  would bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per second  - they  ask  me: "when 
 you said  the world egg  was your  ideal 
 body  type, did  you  mean it"? i answer 
 "not really, but  i  can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom