party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip  my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the   shower  and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per  second -  they ask me:  "when 
 you said  the world egg  was your  ideal 
 body type, did you mean  it"?  i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom