party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as  i 
 start to unzip  my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the  shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be   contacted  by  some 
 [god, alien] who would  bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what  i don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second  - they ask me:  "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body type, did  you mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not really,  but  i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom