,,,,,^**&&                                          &&**^,,,,,
,,,,,,~*&&                                          &&*~,,,,,,
,^~**&&@##                                          ##@&&**~^,
,^~**&@###                                          ###@&**~^,
,,,,,,^~*&                                          &*~^,,,,,,
,^~**&&###                                          ###&&**~^,
,^~**&&@## now, usually i feel  good  (maybe?), but ##@&&**~^,
,,^^***&@# this  time of  confusion also  leads  to #@&***^^,,
,,^~**&&&# all  analyzes  ending  in  "useless" - i #&&&**~^,,
,,^^^**&&@ was  being  bothered by  something  in a @&&**^^^,,
,,,,^*&&&@ song or  movie  or book, so i think, how @&&&*^,,,,
,^~**&&@## would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the ##@&&**~^,
,,,,,^*&&@ purpose  of this  process, what  does it @&&*^,,,,,
,,,^**&&@# consist of...?  and through  the process #@&&**^,,,
,,,,^**&@# more  and more  pieces  falls  off until #@&**^,,,,
,^~****&&#     i'm standing there with nothing.     #&&****~^,
,^~**&&@##                                          ##@&&**~^,
,^~**&&@## reductionist hell -                      ##@&&**~^,
,,,,,,^*&@ i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        @&*^,,,,,,
,^~**&&@@@ bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    @@@&&**~^,
,,,,^~~**& abstract they are, the things, until     &**~~^,,,,
,^~*****&@ they cease to be things at all           @&*****~^,
,^~**&&###                                          ###&&**~^,
,,,,,~~*&@ are we just stacked triangles? there is  @&*~~,,,,,
,^~***&&@@ nothing i can do with triangles. they    @@&&***~^,
,^~**&&&@@ can not shelter me in any meaningful     @@&&&**~^,
,,,,,,~**& sense.                                   &**~,,,,,,
,,,,^^^~*&                                          &*~^^^,,,,
,,^^~***&& and when i can't even anchor myself,     &&***~^^,,
,^~**&&@## when i am nothing but the question, it   ##@&&**~^,
,^~**&&@## feels like it can all slip through my    ##@&&**~^,
,,,^^**&&@ fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    @&&**^^,,,
,,,,,,~*&@ was after that.                          @&*~,,,,,,
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,^~**&&@@@                                          @@@&&**~^,
,,,,,^**&@                                          @&**^,,,,,
,^~**&&@##                                          ##@&&**~^,
,^~**&&&&&                                          &&&&&**~^,