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,,,###,,#, now,  usually  i feel good (maybe?), but ,,#,,,,#,,
,,,#,##,,# this  time  of confusion  also  leads to ,,,#,,,,#,
,,,,,###,, all analyzes ending  in  "useless"  -  i ,,,,#,,,,#
#,,,,#,##, was being  bothered  by  something  in a ,,,,,#,,,,
,#,,,,,### song or movie or  book, so i think,  how #,,,,,#,,,
,,#,,,,#,# would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the ##,,,,,#,,
,,,#,,,,,# purpose  of  this process,  what does it ###,,,,,#,
,,,,#,,,,# consist of...? and through  the  process #,##,,,,,#
#,,,,#,,,, more and  more pieces  falls  off  until ,,###,,,,,
,#,,,,#,,,     i'm standing there with nothing.     ,,#,##,,,,
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,,,#,,,,#, reductionist hell -                      ,,,,#,##,,
,,,,#,,,,# i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ,,,,,,###,
,,,,,#,,,, bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ,,,,,,#,##
#,,,,,#,,, abstract they are, the things, until     #,,,,,,,##
##,,,,,#,, they cease to be things at all           ,#,,,,,,#,
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#,##,,,,,# are we just stacked triangles? there is  ,,,#,,,,,,
,,###,,,,, nothing i can do with triangles. they    #,,,#,,,,,
,,#,##,,,, can not shelter me in any meaningful     ##,,,#,,,,
,,,,###,,, sense.                                   ###,,,#,,,
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,,,,,,###, and when i can't even anchor myself,     ,,###,,,#,
,,,,,,#,## when i am nothing but the question, it   ,,#,##,,,#
#,,,,,,,## feels like it can all slip through my    ,,,,###,,,
,#,,,,,,#, fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ,,,,#,##,,
,,#,,,,,,, was after that.                          ,,,,,,###,
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