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«:,,,,,,,,         internal visionary state         ,,,,,,,,:«
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=^«:,,,,,,            the spirit travels            ,,,,,,:«^=
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=^«:,,,,,, i  wake  suddenly,  and  for  a   second ,,,,,,:«^=
^«:,,,,,,, everything is completely  calm  and dead ,,,,,,,:«^
«:,,,,,,,, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,,,,,,,,:«
:,,,,,,,,, slowly  start   to  piece   together  my ,,,,,,,,,:
,,,,,,,,,,        consciousness and my body.        ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, then  the  fear  hits  me  and  i   feel ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,   acutely sick. something is «wrong«.    ,,,,,,,,,,
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:,,,,,,,,, there  are circles and crosses inscribed ,,,,,,,,,:
«:,,,,,,,, all over  my vision, pressing  in, being ,,,,,,,,:«
^«:,,,,,,, almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, ,,,,,,,:«^
=^«:,,,,,,    their internal logic changing and     ,,,,,,:«^=
$=^«:,,,,, grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like ,,,,,:«^=$
£$=^«:,,,, language,  sentences i can't hide  from, ,,,,:«^=$£
@£$=^«:,,, forcefully transcribed in  my  mind, and ,,,:«^=$£@
#@£$=^«:,,            doing damage there.           ,,:«^=$£@#
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#@£$=^«:,, then  i realize  i can't  hear  anything ,,:«^=$£@#
@£$=^«:,,,     because there's something there      ,,,:«^=$£@
£$=^«:,,,,    already, droning everything out, a    ,,,,:«^=$£
$=^«:,,,,, rapid  melody,  almost caustic  in  it's ,,,,,:«^=$
=^«:,,,,,,         particular microtonality.        ,,,,,,:«^=
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,,,,,,,,,, my  surroundings are entirely calm. it's ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,              almost mocking.             ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, i  feel  helpless,  but i  must  try  to ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, escape. to crawl on the floor  searching ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, relief, such  is my  nature. turning the ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,     lights on does nothing... getting    ,,,,,,,,,,
:,,,,,,,,,  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,,,,,,,,,:
«:,,,,,,,, does noting...  but time  does  -  after ,,,,,,,,:«
^«:,,,,,,,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ,,,,,,,:«^
=^«:,,,,,, doubting anything  of  this  happened in ,,,,,,:«^=
$=^«:,,,,,             the first place.             ,,,,,:«^=$
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@£$=^«:,,, my eyes are  still tense though, scared. ,,,:«^=$£@
#@£$=^«:,, i    don't   know    what    to    make. ,,:«^=$£@#
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#@£$=^«:,,              but i'm tired.              ,,:«^=$£@#
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«:,,,,,,,, this can  happen  if you wander too far, ,,,,,,,,:«
:,,,,,,,,, i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be so  reckless ,,,,,,,,,:
,,,,,,,,,,              when dreaming?              ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, i imagine  a prick on  the nose,  that's ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, what these are.  like you do with a  cat ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, who  comes to close to  your sandwich... ,,,,,,,,,,
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