something's  inside  of  me  and i  know 
 this   because  of  how  nice  it  feels 
                                          
  
                                          
 there are  brown spots on my hands. they 
    are moving, growing, disappearing,    
 appearing  again. this is almost erotic. 
                                          
 there is a spy in my eyes, installed  to 
 identify these spots and to give  me  an 
     appropriate reaction (positive).     
                                          
 when i gather all my willpower, and  set 
 it  ablaze   all  at   once,  the   most 
 resistance i can muster is indifference.