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§§¨§¨§¨§¨§         ^                      ^         §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§         ^ MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF ^         §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§         ^*-----:::¨  ¨:::-----*^         §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                THE TREES.                §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§               TELEVISION.                §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§                 SO MUCH.                 §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§            -----::¨ ¨::-----             §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§ EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER.  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§             HAD BEEN REAL...             §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§             -----::¨ ¨::-----            §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§               SOME ON FIRE.              §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨§  TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§               SHE WAS HERE!              §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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