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,,:«;%*@£# #£@*%;«:,,
,:«;%*@£## i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing ##£@*%;«:,
,,:«;%*@£# crimes mostly from or in my beloved and #£@*%;«:,,
,,,:«;%*@£ trusted car, and sometimes my mothers £@*%;«:,,,
,,,,:«;%*@ barn. we lived just outside town, a @*%;«:,,,,
,,,,,:«;%* grove at the end of a dirt road, and *%;«:,,,,,
,,,,,,:«;% the barn was placed so you could just %;«:,,,,,,
,,,,,,,:«; make out the surrounding fields through ;«:,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,:« the trees. «:,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,:« my car was black and loud, both the «:,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,:«; engine and the way the parts didn't ;«:,,,,,,,
,,,,,,:«;% really stick together. i took my %;«:,,,,,,
,,,,,:«;%* crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the *%;«:,,,,,
,,,,:«;%*@ eternal dark that seemed to surround @*%;«:,,,,
,,,:«;%*@£ us. she seemed to cast this veil over £@*%;«:,,,
,,:«;%*@£# everything. her black skirt reached to #£@*%;«:,,
,:«;%*@£## her knees but then somehow also back ##£@*%;«:,
,,:«;%*@£# around, enveloping all my memories of #£@*%;«:,,
,,,:«;%*@£ our time together. £@*%;«:,,,
,,,,:«;%*@ @*%;«:,,,,
,,,,,:«;%* there was blood everywhere. sometimes *%;«:,,,,,
,,,,,,:«;% the blood was her red lipstick or her %;«:,,,,,,
,,,,,,,:«; checkered shirt. she was on television. ;«:,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,:« we did crime, and we made weird «:,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,: structures in the barn, tall pillars of :,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,:« dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires «:,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,:«; and fairy lights. we would sleep there ;«:,,,,,,,
,,,,,,:«;% and drink there and she would go in the %;«:,,,,,,
,,,,,:«;%* television. *%;«:,,,,,
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,,,:«;%*@£ and then the sun came out, and she went £@*%;«:,,,
,,:«;%*@£# away. everything changed... i yearned, #£@*%;«:,,
,:«;%*@£## and the world became dull around me. ##£@*%;«:,
,,:«;%*@£# #£@*%;«:,,
,,,:«;%*@£ i stopped doing crime, except when £@*%;«:,,,
,,,,:«;%*@ necessarry. things somehow seemed like @*%;«:,,,,
,,,,,:«;%* they were allright, moulded in place, *%;«:,,,,,
,,,,,,:«;% and i loathed it ------ i missed her %;«:,,,,,,
,,,,,,,:«; so much. ;«:,,,,,,,
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,,,,,:«;%* i searched for her, but nobody had any *%;«:,,,,,
,,,,:«;%*@ memories of her. not so much of me @*%;«:,,,,
,,,:«;%*@£ either, from the time we were together. £@*%;«:,,,
,,:«;%*@£# my mother said i kept to myself in the #£@*%;«:,,
,:«;%*@£## barn, or in the car. ##£@*%;«:,
,,:«;%*@£# #£@*%;«:,,
,,,:«;%*@£ sometimes i could still see her £@*%;«:,,,
,,,,:«;%*@ flashing by on the tv in the barn. @*%;«:,,,,
,,,,,:«;%* everything was black then, for a *%;«:,,,,,
,,,,,,:«;% moment. i remembered her laugh and knew %;«:,,,,,,
,,,,,,,:«; we had done crimes together, that it ;«:,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,:« had been real... «:,,,,,,,,
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,,,,:«;%*@ i died by getting shot in the head @*%;«:,,,,
,,,:«;%*@£ while ramming the fence to a military £@*%;«:,,,
,,:«;%*@£# facility. by this time they had been #£@*%;«:,,
,:«;%*@£## chasing me for days. i lost control ##£@*%;«:,
,,:«;%*@£# over the car, crashed it into a rock #£@*%;«:,,
,,,:«;%*@£ wall and flew out the windshield. £@*%;«:,,,
,,,,:«;%*@ @*%;«:,,,,
,,,,,:«;%* and then i got up, and looked around. *%;«:,,,,,
,,,,,,:«;% it was dark, where it previously had %;«:,,,,,,
,,,,,,,:«; been a bright day. around me where ;«:,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,:« dozens of crashed cars, all my car, «:,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,: some on fire. :,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,:«; the ground was sticky, red. ;«:,,,,,,,
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,,,,,:«;%* and then i realized that i knew this *%;«:,,,,,
,,,,:«;%*@ darkness. i knew the way the sky @*%;«:,,,,
,,,:«;%*@£ touched the ground. this was her doing! £@*%;«:,,,
,,:«;%*@£# she was here! #£@*%;«:,,
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,,:«;%*@£# #£@*%;«:,,
,,,:«;%*@£ £@*%;«:,,,
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