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...~~--=££  i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing ££=--~~...
.~-\=&£££#  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and #£££&=\-~.
..~~-=&£££  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   £££&=-~~..
.~-\=&£###    barn. we lived just outside town, a   ###£&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   ###£&=\-~.
.....--\&#  the barn was placed so you could just   #&\--.....
...-\\&&&£  make out the surrounding fields through £&&&\\-...
.~-\=&£###                the trees.                ###£&=\-~.
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...~\\=&&#    my car was black and loud, both the   #&&=\\~...
...--\&&££    engine and the way the parts didn't   ££&&\--...
.~-\=&£###     really stick together. i took my     ###£&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###  crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the ###£&=\-~.
.....--\=£   eternal dark that seemed to surround   £=\--.....
.~-\===££#  us. she seemed to cast this veil over   #££===\-~.
.....-\==£  everything. her black skirt reached to  £==\-.....
.~-\=&£###   her knees but then somehow also back   ###£&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###  around, enveloping all my memories of   ###£&=\-~.
...~~\&&£#            our time together.            #£&&\~~...
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.~-\=&####  there was blood everywhere. sometimes   ####&=\-~.
.~-\=&££##   the blood was her red lipstick or her  ##££&=\-~.
.~-\=====£  checkered shirt. she was on television. £=====\-~.
.~-\=£####     we did crime, and we made weird      ####£=\-~.
.....~\&££  structures in the barn, tall pillars of ££&\~.....
...~~~\\=£  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  £=\\~~~...
.~-\=&£###  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  ###£&=\-~.
.~-\=&£### and drink there and she would go in the  ###£&=\-~.
.~-\=£####                television.               ####£=\-~.
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.~-\=&£££# and then the sun came out, and she went  #£££&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###  away. everything changed... i yearned,  ###£&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###   and the world became dull around me.   ###£&=\-~.
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.~-\=&£###    i stopped doing crime, except when    ###£&=\-~.
....~-\=&£  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  £&=\-~....
.~-\=&£££#   they were allright, moulded in place,  #£££&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ###£&=\-~.
.~-\&£####                 so much.                 ####£&\-~.
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.~-\=&£###  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ###£&=\-~.
.~-\====&£    memories of her. not so much of me    £&====\-~.
.~-\=&&&&# either, from the time we were together.  #&&&&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###  my mother said i kept to myself in the  ###£&=\-~.
..~--\\==£           barn, or in the car.           £==\\--~..
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.~-\====&#     sometimes i could still see her      #&====\-~.
.~-\=&£###    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    ###£&=\-~.
.....~\=£#     everything was black then, for a     #£=\~.....
..~~-=&&££ moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  ££&&=-~~..
.~-\=&£###   we had done crimes together, that it   ###£&=\-~.
...-\\=££#             had been real...             #££=\\-...
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.....~-=££    i died by getting shot in the head    ££=-~.....
...~\\=&&£  while ramming the fence to a military   £&&=\\~...
.~-\=&£££#   facility. by this time they had been   #£££&=\-~.
.~-\=&&££#   chasing me for days. i lost control    #££&&=\-~.
...~-\&£##   over the car, crashed it into a rock   ##£&\-~...
.~-\=&£###     wall and flew out the windshield.    ###£&=\-~.
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..~--\&&&#  and then i got up, and looked around.   #&&&\--~..
.~-\=&£###   it was dark, where it previously had   ###£&=\-~.
.~-\=&££##    been a bright day. around me where    ##££&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###   dozens of crashed cars, all my car,    ###£&=\-~.
.~-\=&£###               some on fire.              ###£&=\-~.
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.~-\=&£###       the ground was sticky, red.        ###£&=\-~.
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.....-\&&£   and then i realized that i knew this   £&&\-.....
.~-\===££#     darkness. i knew the way the sky     #££===\-~.
.~-\=&£### touched the ground. this was her doing!  ###£&=\-~.
...--\=&£#              she was here!               #£&=\--...
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