party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of  dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants,  she steps out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what i  don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second -  they  ask me: "when 
 you  said the  world egg was your  ideal 
 body type,  did  you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom