party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as  i 
 start  to unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second -  they  ask me:  "when 
 you  said the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type, did you mean  it"?  i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom