party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of  dirty  clothes, of garbage, and as i 
 start to  unzip  my pants, she steps out 
 of   the   shower  and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be  contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien]  who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per second  - they  ask  me: "when 
 you said  the  world egg was your  ideal 
 body type,  did you mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but  i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom