party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of  dirty  clothes, of garbage, and as i 
 start to  unzip my pants, she  steps out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien]  who would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right  forever. what i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times  per  second - they ask  me: "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body  type,  did you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i  can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom