party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and  as i 
 start  to unzip  my pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right  forever. what i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second - they ask  me:  "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did you mean it"?  i  answer 
 "not really, but i  can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom