party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower  curtains drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of  garbage, and as i 
 start  to  unzip my pants, she steps out 
 of  the   shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second  -  they ask  me: "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body  type, did  you mean  it"? i answer 
 "not really, but i can  act like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom