party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower  curtains drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as  i 
 start  to unzip my pants, she steps  out 
 of  the   shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien]  who would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times  per  second - they ask  me: "when 
 you  said the  world egg was  your ideal 
 body  type,  did you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but i  can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom