party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as  i 
 start  to unzip my pants, she steps  out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what i  don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times  per second  - they ask  me: "when 
 you  said the  world egg was  your ideal 
 body type, did you mean  it"?  i  answer 
 "not really, but  i can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom