party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and  as i 
 start to  unzip my pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien]  who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right  forever. what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second - they ask  me:  "when 
 you  said  the world egg  was your ideal 
 body type, did  you mean it"?  i  answer 
 "not  really,  but i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom