party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage, and  as i 
 start  to unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever. what  i  don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second -  they ask me:  "when 
 you said  the  world egg  was your ideal 
 body  type,  did you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but  i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom