party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of  dirty  clothes, of garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien]  who would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever. what  i  don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second -  they ask  me:  "when 
 you said  the world egg  was  your ideal 
 body  type,  did you mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but i can  act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom