party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage, and  as i 
 start to unzip  my pants,  she steps out 
 of  the   shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  - they  ask me: "when 
 you  said  the world egg was your  ideal 
 body type, did  you mean it"?  i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom