party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of  dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip  my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the  shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien]  who would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  -  they ask me: "when 
 you said the  world egg  was your  ideal 
 body  type,  did  you mean it"? i answer 
 "not  really, but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom