party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as i 
 start  to unzip my pants, she  steps out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever.  what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second  -  they ask me: "when 
 you  said  the world egg was your  ideal 
 body  type, did you mean it"?  i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom