party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as i 
 start  to unzip my pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second  -  they ask me:  "when 
 you said the  world egg  was your  ideal 
 body type,  did  you  mean it"? i answer 
 "not really,  but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom