party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip my pants, she  steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per second -  they  ask me:  "when 
 you  said the  world egg was your  ideal 
 body  type, did  you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really,  but i  can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom