always tears in my eyes  when using  the 
                 machine.                 
                                          
 i don't think  it's  hormonal  overload. 
 there's  no  grief or joy  as  my  water 
 rolls  down my face.  i  notice  nothing 
 until my chin is  wet. wipe it off  with 
 the  back of my hand. but i usually keep 
            crying for a while.           
                                          
 i theorize  some  kind  of resonance  in 
   the neural interface; some saturation  
 signal being  tripped? the connection is 
        imperfect and often induces       
  single-sense hallucinations. acute but  
 hollow  hunger.  sand  grains  under  my 
  fingertips. strange tastes and scents.  
                                          
 and  i  mean,  maybe  it  isn't  to  far 
 fetched that  something  like  that  can 
  cause autonomous reactions? dry mouth.  
     finger spasms. opened tear ducts.