party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as  i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she  steps out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien]  who  would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per  second - they  ask  me: "when 
 you  said  the world egg was your  ideal 
 body type,  did you mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but  i can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the encounter  and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom