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.,~;†$§£##  i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing ##£§$†;~,.
..,,,,,~†§ crimes mostly from or in my beloved and  §†~,,,,,..
.....~;$§§   trusted car, and sometimes my mothers  §§$;~.....
.,~;†$§£##    barn. we lived just outside town, a   ##£§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§£##   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   ##£§$†;~,.
.....,,;$£  the barn was placed so you could just   £$;,,.....
.,~;†$§§§£  make out the surrounding fields through £§§§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§£##                the trees.                ##£§$†;~,.
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.,~;†$§###    my car was black and loud, both the   ###§$†;~,.
......~†§#    engine and the way the parts didn't   #§†~......
.......~†§     really stick together. i took my     §†~.......
.,~;†$$§§#  crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the #§§$$†;~,.
.......~†§   eternal dark that seemed to surround   §†~.......
.,,,,~††§£   us. she seemed to cast this veil over  £§††~,,,,.
...,,,;††§  everything. her black skirt reached to  §††;,,,...
.,~;;;;†$§   her knees but then somehow also back   §$†;;;;~,.
.,~;†$§###   around, enveloping all my memories of  ###§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§###            our time together.            ###§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§£##                                          ##£§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§£##   there was blood everywhere. sometimes  ##£§$†;~,.
.,~;$§£###  the blood was her red lipstick or her   ###£§$;~,.
....,;$§£# checkered shirt. she was on television.  #£§$;,....
......,;$§     we did crime, and we made weird      §$;,......
.,~;†$§£## structures in the barn, tall pillars of  ##£§$†;~,.
.,~;†§£###  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  ###£§†;~,.
.....~~;$£  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  £$;~~.....
...~~;;†§§  and drink there and she would go in the §§†;;~~...
.,~;†$§£##               television.                ##£§$†;~,.
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....,;†$§£ and then the sun came out, and she went  £§$†;,....
.,~;†$$$§£  away. everything changed... i yearned,  £§$$$†;~,.
.,~~~†$§§£   and the world became dull around me.   £§§$†~~~,.
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...,~~;$£#    i stopped doing crime, except when    #£$;~~,...
.,~;†$§£##  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  ##£§$†;~,.
.....,~;†§   they were allright, moulded in place,  §†;~,.....
....,;†§£#   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   #£§†;,....
.,~;†$§£##                 so much.                 ##£§$†;~,.
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....,;†§§#  i searched for her, but nobody had any  #§§†;,....
.,~;†$§£##    memories of her. not so much of me    ##£§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§£## either, from the time we were together.  ##£§$†;~,.
...~~;;$£#  my mother said i kept to myself in the  #£$;;~~...
.,~;†$§£##           barn, or in the car.           ##£§$†;~,.
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.......~†§      sometimes i could still see her     §†~.......
.....,;;$§    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    §$;;,.....
.,~;$§£###     everything was black then, for a     ###£§$;~,.
.,~;†$§£## moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  ##£§$†;~,.
.,~;;††$§£   we had done crimes together, that it   £§$††;;~,.
.,~;†$§£##             had been real...             ##£§$†;~,.
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.,~;†$§££#                                          #££§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§££#    i died by getting shot in the head    #££§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§###  while ramming the fence to a military   ###§$†;~,.
.,~;†††$§£   facility. by this time they had been   £§$†††;~,.
.,~;†$§£##   chasing me for days. i lost control    ##£§$†;~,.
...~~††§§£   over the car, crashed it into a rock   £§§††~~...
......,;†§     wall and flew out the windshield.    §†;,......
.,~;†$§£##                                          ##£§$†;~,.
......~;$§   and then i got up, and looked around.  §$;~......
.....,,;†§   it was dark, where it previously had   §†;,,.....
.,~;†$§££#    been a bright day. around me where    #££§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§£##   dozens of crashed cars, all my car,    ##£§$†;~,.
.,~;†$§£##              some on fire.               ##£§$†;~,.
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....~~††§§        the ground was sticky, red.       §§††~~....
.,~;;;$§££                                          ££§$;;;~,.
.,~;†$§£##   and then i realized that i knew this   ##£§$†;~,.
.,~;††$$§§     darkness. i knew the way the sky     §§$$††;~,.
.,~;†$£###  touched the ground. this was her doing! ###£$†;~,.
......,~†§              she was here!               §†~,......
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