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§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§         *:~~~~~,,,¨  ¨,,,~~~~~:*         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§         *                      *         §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§         * MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF *         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§         *                      *         §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§         *:~~~~~,,,¨  ¨,,,~~~~~:*         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
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§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§    BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                THE TREES.                ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§   MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§    ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION.  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§ STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§               TELEVISION.                §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§                 SO MUCH.                 §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
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§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§             ~~~~~,,¨ ¨,,~~~~~            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§      SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER     §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§  MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§             ~~~~~,,¨ ¨,,~~~~~            §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§   WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§    CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§     WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.    §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§               SOME ON FIRE.              §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§¨§§  TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨¨§               SHE WAS HERE!              ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
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