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,,-~\†*§¶#         †\~~~~~---,  ,---~~~~~\†         #¶§*†\~-,,
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,,-~\†*§¶#         † mirage class goth gf †         #¶§*†\~-,,
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,,,,-~\†*§         †\~~~~~---,  ,---~~~~~\†         §*†\~-,,,,
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,,,,,-~\†* i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing  *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,-~\†*§  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and §*†\~-,,,,
,,,-~\†*§¶  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,-~\†*§¶#    barn. we lived just outside town, a   #¶§*†\~-,,
,-~\†*§¶##   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   ##¶§*†\~-,
,,-~\†*§¶#   the barn was placed so you could just  #¶§*†\~-,,
,,,-~\†*§¶  make out the surrounding fields through ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,,,-~\†*§                the trees.                §*†\~-,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*                                          *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,,,-~\†   my car was black and loud, both the    †\~-,,,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*    engine and the way the parts didn't   *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,-~\†*§     really stick together. i took my     §*†\~-,,,,
,,,-~\†*§¶  crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,-~\†*§¶#   eternal dark that seemed to surround   #¶§*†\~-,,
,-~\†*§¶##  us. she seemed to cast this veil over   ##¶§*†\~-,
,,-~\†*§¶#  everything. her black skirt reached to  #¶§*†\~-,,
,,,-~\†*§¶   her knees but then somehow also back   ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,,,-~\†*§   around, enveloping all my memories of  §*†\~-,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*            our time together.            *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,,,-~\†                                          †\~-,,,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*   there was blood everywhere. sometimes  *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,-~\†*§  the blood was her red lipstick or her   §*†\~-,,,,
,,,-~\†*§¶ checkered shirt. she was on television.  ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,-~\†*§¶#      we did crime, and we made weird     #¶§*†\~-,,
,-~\†*§¶## structures in the barn, tall pillars of  ##¶§*†\~-,
,,-~\†*§¶#  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  #¶§*†\~-,,
,,,-~\†*§¶  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,,,-~\†*§ and drink there and she would go in the  §*†\~-,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*                television.               *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,,,-~\†                                          †\~-,,,,,,
,,,,,-~\†* and then the sun came out, and she went  *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,-~\†*§  away. everything changed... i yearned,  §*†\~-,,,,
,,,-~\†*§¶   and the world became dull around me.   ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,-~\†*§¶#                                          #¶§*†\~-,,
,-~\†*§¶##    i stopped doing crime, except when    ##¶§*†\~-,
,,-~\†*§¶#  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  #¶§*†\~-,,
,,,-~\†*§¶  they were allright, moulded in place,   ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,,,-~\†*§   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   §*†\~-,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*                 so much.                 *†\~-,,,,,
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,,,,-~\†*§            ~~~~~--, ,--~~~~~             §*†\~-,,,,
,,,-~\†*§¶                                          ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,-~\†*§¶#                                          #¶§*†\~-,,
,-~\†*§¶##  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ##¶§*†\~-,
,,-~\†*§¶#    memories of her. not so much of me    #¶§*†\~-,,
,,,-~\†*§¶ either, from the time we were together.  ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,,,-~\†*§  my mother said i kept to myself in the  §*†\~-,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*           barn, or in the car.           *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,,,-~\†                                          †\~-,,,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*      sometimes i could still see her     *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,-~\†*§    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    §*†\~-,,,,
,,,-~\†*§¶     everything was black then, for a     ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,-~\†*§¶# moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  #¶§*†\~-,,
,-~\†*§¶##   we had done crimes together, that it   ##¶§*†\~-,
,,-~\†*§¶#             had been real...             #¶§*†\~-,,
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,,,,-~\†*§                                          §*†\~-,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*            ~~~~~--, ,--~~~~~             *†\~-,,,,,
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,,,,,-~\†*                                          *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,-~\†*§    i died by getting shot in the head    §*†\~-,,,,
,,,-~\†*§¶   while ramming the fence to a military  ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,-~\†*§¶#   facility. by this time they had been   #¶§*†\~-,,
,-~\†*§¶##    chasing me for days. i lost control   ##¶§*†\~-,
,,-~\†*§¶#   over the car, crashed it into a rock   #¶§*†\~-,,
,,,-~\†*§¶    wall and flew out the windshield.     ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,,,-~\†*§                                          §*†\~-,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*  and then i got up, and looked around.   *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,,,-~\†   it was dark, where it previously had   †\~-,,,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*    been a bright day. around me where    *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,-~\†*§   dozens of crashed cars, all my car,    §*†\~-,,,,
,,,-~\†*§¶              some on fire.               ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,-~\†*§¶#                                          #¶§*†\~-,,
,-~\†*§¶##       the ground was sticky, red.        ##¶§*†\~-,
,,-~\†*§¶#                                          #¶§*†\~-,,
,,,-~\†*§¶   and then i realized that i knew this   ¶§*†\~-,,,
,,,,-~\†*§     darkness. i knew the way the sky     §*†\~-,,,,
,,,,,-~\†*  touched the ground. this was her doing! *†\~-,,,,,
,,,,,,-~\†              she was here!               †\~-,,,,,,
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