always  tears  in my eyes when using the 
                 machine.                 
                                          
 i don't  think  it's  hormonal overload. 
 there's  no  grief or  joy as  my  water 
 rolls  down my  face. i  notice  nothing 
 until my chin  is wet. wipe it  off with 
 the back of my hand. but i usually  keep 
            crying for a while.           
                                          
 i theorize  some  kind of  resonance  in 
   the neural interface; some saturation  
 signal being tripped? the  connection is 
        imperfect and often induces       
  single-sense hallucinations. acute but  
 hollow  hunger.  sand  grains  under  my 
  fingertips. strange tastes and scents.  
                                          
 and  i  mean,  maybe  it  isn't  to  far 
 fetched  that something  like  that  can 
  cause autonomous reactions? dry mouth.  
    finger spasms. opened tear ducts.