always  tears  in my eyes when using the 
                 machine.                 
                                          
 i  don't  think  it's hormonal overload. 
 there's no  grief or  joy  as  my  water 
 rolls  down my  face.  i notice  nothing 
 until  my chin is wet. wipe it  off with 
 the back of  my hand. but i usually keep 
           crying for a while.            
                                          
 i  theorize  some  kind  of resonance in 
   the neural interface; some saturation  
 signal being  tripped? the connection is 
       imperfect and often induces        
  single-sense hallucinations. acute but  
 hollow  hunger.  sand  grains  under  my 
  fingertips. strange tastes and scents.  
                                          
 and  i  mean,  maybe  it  isn't  to  far 
 fetched  that  something  like  that can 
  cause autonomous reactions? dry mouth.  
     finger spasms. opened tear ducts.