¨&¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨ ¨¨&&¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨&&¨&&¨¨¨¨ &¨&¨&¨¨¨¨¨
¨&¨&&¨&¨¨¨ ¨&&&&&¨¨¨¨
¨&&&¨&&&¨¨ &&¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨
¨&¨¨&&¨¨&¨ &¨&¨¨¨&&¨¨
¨&&¨&¨&¨&& ¨¨*¶*¨¨ &&&&¨¨&¨&¨
¨&¨&&&&&&¨ ¨:†$¶######¶$†:¨ &¨¨¨&¨&&&&
&&&&¨¨¨¨¨& ¨¨¨::«$# dreams #$«::¨¨¨ ¨&¨¨&&&¨¨¨
&¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨& ¨:†$¶######¶$†:¨ ¨&&¨&¨¨&¨¨
&&¨¨&&¨¨¨& ¨¨*¶*¨¨ ¨&¨&&&¨&&¨
&¨&¨&¨&¨¨& ¨&&&¨¨&&¨&
¨&&&&&&&¨& ¨:¨ ¨&¨¨&¨&¨&&
&&¨¨¨¨¨¨&& ¨*##&*¨ ¨&&¨&&&&&¨
&¨&¨¨¨¨¨&¨ ¨:¨ &&¨&&¨¨¨¨&
¨&&&¨¨¨¨&& &¨&&¨&¨¨¨&
&&¨¨&¨¨¨&¨ internal visionary state &&&¨&&&¨¨&
¨¨&¨&&¨¨&& ¨¨¨&&¨¨&¨&
&¨&&&¨&¨&¨ the spirit travels &¨¨&¨&¨&&&
¨&&¨¨&&&&& &&¨&&&&&¨¨
¨&¨&¨&¨¨¨¨ ¨:†$¶######¶$†:¨ &¨&&¨¨¨¨&¨
¨&&&&&&¨¨¨ ¨«¨ &&&¨&¨¨¨&&
&&¨¨¨¨¨&¨¨ &¨¨&&&¨¨&¨
&¨&¨¨¨¨&&¨ a cost ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&&&¨¨¨&¨& (anecdote) ¨&&&&¨&&&¨
¨&¨¨&¨¨&&& ¨&¨¨¨&&¨¨&
&&&¨&&¨&¨¨ :: &&&¨¨&¨&¨&
¨¨¨&&¨&&&¨ &¨¨&¨&&&&&
&¨¨&¨&&¨¨& i wake suddenly, and for a second ¨&¨&&&¨¨¨¨
&&¨&&&¨&¨& everything is completely calm and dead ¨&&&¨¨&¨¨¨
&¨&&¨¨&&&& silent. it's dark, and warm, and i &&¨¨&¨&&¨¨
&&&¨&¨&¨¨¨ slowly start to piece together my &¨&¨&&&¨&¨
&¨¨&&&&&¨¨ consciousness and my body. ¨&&&&¨¨&&&
¨&¨&¨¨¨¨&¨ ¨&¨¨¨&¨&¨¨
¨&&&&¨¨¨&& then the fear hits me and i feel &&&¨¨&&&&¨
¨&¨¨¨&¨¨&¨ acutely sick. something is «wrong«. ¨¨¨&¨&¨¨¨&
&&&¨¨&&¨&& &¨¨&&&&¨¨&
¨¨¨&¨&¨&&¨ ¨¨ &&¨&¨¨¨&¨&
&¨¨&&&&&¨& &¨&&&¨¨&&&
¨&¨&¨¨¨¨&& there are circles and crosses inscribed &&&¨¨&¨&¨¨
¨&&&&¨¨¨&¨ all over my vision, pressing in, being ¨¨¨&¨&&&&¨
¨&¨¨¨&¨¨&& almost hostile. i can feel them squirm, ¨¨¨&&&¨¨¨&
&&&¨¨&&¨&¨ their internal logic changing and &¨¨&¨¨&¨¨&
¨¨¨&¨&¨&&& grinding trenches in my mind. it's like &&¨&&¨&&¨&
&¨¨&&&&&¨¨ language, sentences i can't hide from, ¨¨&&¨&&¨&&
¨&¨&¨¨¨¨&¨ forcefully transcribed in my mind, and ¨¨&¨&&¨&&¨
¨&&&&¨¨¨&& doing damage there. ¨¨&&&¨&&¨&
&&¨¨¨&¨¨&¨ ¨¨&¨¨&&¨&&
¨¨&¨¨&&¨&& then i realize i can't hear anything &¨&&¨&¨&&¨
¨¨&&¨&¨&&¨ because there's something there &&&¨&&&&¨&
&¨&¨&&&&¨& already, droning everything out, a ¨¨¨&&¨¨¨&&
¨&&&&¨¨¨&& rapid melody, almost caustic in it's ¨¨¨&¨&¨¨&¨
¨&¨¨¨&¨¨&¨ particular microtonality. &¨¨&&&&¨&&
&&&¨¨&&¨&& ¨&¨&¨¨¨&&¨
&¨¨&¨&¨&&¨ :: ¨&&&&¨¨&¨&
¨&¨&&&&&¨& &&¨¨¨&¨&&&
&&&&¨¨¨¨&& my surroundings are entirely calm. it's ¨¨&¨¨&&&¨¨
&¨¨¨&¨¨¨&¨ almost mocking. &¨&&¨&¨¨&¨
&&¨¨&&¨¨&& &&&¨&&&¨&&
¨¨&¨&¨&¨&¨ i feel helpless, but i must try to &¨¨&&¨¨&&¨
¨¨&&&&&&&& escape. to crawl on the floor searching &&¨&¨&¨&¨&
&¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ relief, such is my nature. turning the ¨¨&&&&&&&&
¨&&&¨¨¨¨¨¨ lights on does nothing... getting ¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨&¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨ outside does nothing... drinking water ¨¨&&¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨&&¨&&¨¨¨¨ does noting... but time does - after &¨&¨&¨¨¨¨¨
¨&¨&&¨&¨¨¨ thirty seconds i'm normal again, ¨&&&&&¨¨¨¨
¨&&&¨&&&¨¨ doubting anything of this happened in &&¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨
¨&¨¨&&¨¨&¨ the first place. &¨&¨¨¨&&¨¨
¨&&¨&¨&¨&& &&&&¨¨&¨&¨
¨&¨&&&&&&¨ my eyes are still tense though, scared. &¨¨¨&¨&&&&
&&&&¨¨¨¨¨& i don't know what to make. ¨&¨¨&&&¨¨¨
&¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨& ¨&&¨&¨¨&¨¨
&&¨¨&&¨¨¨& but i'm tired. ¨&¨&&&¨&&¨
&¨&¨&¨&¨¨& ¨&&&¨¨&&¨&
¨&&&&&&&¨& ¨ ¨&¨¨&¨&¨&&
&&¨¨¨¨¨¨&& ::«†«:: ¨&&¨&&&&&¨
&¨&¨¨¨¨¨&¨ ¨ &&¨&&¨¨¨¨&
¨&&&¨¨¨¨&& &¨&&¨&¨¨¨&
&&¨¨&¨¨¨&¨ this can happen if you wander too far, &&&¨&&&¨¨&
¨¨&¨&&¨¨&& i guess? i shouldn't be so reckless ¨¨¨&&¨¨&¨&
&¨&&&¨&¨&¨ when dreaming? &¨¨&¨&¨&&&
¨&&¨¨&&&&& i imagine a prick on the nose, that's &&¨&&&&&¨¨
¨&¨&¨&¨¨¨¨ what these are. like you do with a cat &¨&&¨¨¨¨&¨
¨&&&&&&¨¨¨ who comes to close to your sandwich... &&&¨&¨¨¨&&
&&¨¨¨¨¨&¨¨ &¨¨&&&¨¨&¨
&¨&¨¨¨¨&&¨ ¨&¨&¨¨&¨&&
¨&&&¨¨¨&¨& ¨&&&&¨&&&¨
¨&¨¨&¨¨&&& ¨&¨¨¨&&¨¨&
&&&¨&&¨&¨¨ &&&¨¨&¨&¨&
¨¨¨&&¨&&&¨ &¨¨&¨&&&&&