party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of  dirty  clothes, of garbage, and as i 
 start  to unzip my pants, she  steps out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to  be   contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times  per second - they  ask  me: "when 
 you  said  the  world egg was your ideal 
 body  type,  did you mean it"? i  answer 
 "not  really, but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom