when  i  was in eight grade i  decided i 
 was dead. my  spirit  had left  my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i  remember sitting in my parents car on 
 a  cloudy,  watery day,  getting  a ride 
 somewhere.  it  felt  like i had  solved 
 some  great   puzzle.  i've  solved   no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i still give  it life, 
 somehow. like  a golem, and i try not to 
 care  too  much,   but  i  do.  it's   a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my echo.  afterglow  of  my 
                  spirit.