when i  was  in eight grade  i decided i 
 was dead.  my  spirit had left  my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i remember sitting  in my parents car on 
 a  cloudy,  watery day, getting  a  ride 
 somewhere. it  felt like  i  had  solved 
 some  great  puzzle.   i've  solved   no 
           puzzles since then.            
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i still  give it life, 
 somehow.  like a golem, and i try not to 
 care  too  much,  but  i  do.   it's   a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my  echo.  afterglow  of my 
                  spirit.