always tears in  my eyes when  using the 
                 machine.                 
                                          
 i  don't think  it's  hormonal overload. 
 there's  no  grief  or  joy as my  water 
 rolls  down my  face. i  notice  nothing 
 until my chin  is  wet. wipe it off with 
 the back of my hand.  but i usually keep 
            crying for a while.           
                                          
 i  theorize  some  kind of resonance  in 
  the neural interface; some saturation   
 signal being  tripped? the connection is 
       imperfect and often induces        
  single-sense hallucinations. acute but  
 hollow  hunger.  sand  grains  under  my 
  fingertips. strange tastes and scents.  
                                          
 and  i  mean,  maybe  it  isn't  to  far 
 fetched  that  something like  that  can 
  cause autonomous reactions? dry mouth.  
     finger spasms. opened tear ducts.