party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage, and  as  i 
 start to unzip my pants, she  steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per second  - they ask  me:  "when 
 you said  the world egg  was  your ideal 
 body type,  did you mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but  i can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom