party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty  clothes, of  garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip  my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who would  bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per  second -  they  ask me: "when 
 you  said  the world egg  was your ideal 
 body  type, did you mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not  really,  but i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the  encounter and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom