when i  was in eight grade  i decided  i 
 was  dead. my spirit  had  left my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i  remember sitting in my parents car on 
 a cloudy, watery  day,  getting  a  ride 
 somewhere.  it felt  like  i had  solved 
 some  great  puzzle.   i've   solved  no 
            puzzles since then.           
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i  still give it life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and i  try not to 
 care  too  much,   but   i  do.  it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my  echo.  afterglow  of my 
                  spirit.