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@,@,@,@,@@ now, usually  i feel good (maybe?),  but ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ this  time  of  confusion  also leads to ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ all  analyzes ending in  "useless"  -  i ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ was  being  bothered by something  in  a ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ song or  movie  or book, so i think, how ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ purpose of  this  process, what  does it ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ consist of...?  and through  the process ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ more  and  more pieces  falls off  until ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@     i'm standing there with nothing.     ,,@,@,@,@,
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@,@,@,@,,@ reductionist hell -                      ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ abstract they are, the things, until     ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ they cease to be things at all           ,,@,@,@,@,
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@,@,@,@,,@ are we just stacked triangles? there is  ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ nothing i can do with triangles. they    ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ can not shelter me in any meaningful     ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ sense.                                   ,@@,@,@,@,
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@,@,@,@,@@ and when i can't even anchor myself,     ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ when i am nothing but the question, it   ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ feels like it can all slip through my    ,@@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,,@ fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ,,@,@,@,@,
@,@,@,@,@@ was after that.                          ,@@,@,@,@,
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