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,,##,,,,,, now, usually  i feel good  (maybe?), but ###,###,,#
#,#,#,,,,, this  time of  confusion  also leads  to #,,##,,#,#
,#####,,,, all  analyzes  ending  in "useless"  - i ,#,#,#,###
##,,,,#,,, was  being  bothered  by something  in a ,#######,,
#,#,,,##,, song or movie or book, so i  think,  how ##,,,,,,#,
####,,#,#, would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the #,#,,,,,##
,,,,#,#### purpose of this process,  what  does  it ,###,,,,#,
,,,,###,,, consist of...? and  through the  process ##,,#,,,##
#,,,#,,#,, more and  more  pieces  falls off  until #,#,##,,#,
##,,##,##,     i'm standing there with nothing.     #####,#,##
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,,#####,## reductionist hell -                      #,,,,#,,,#
#,#,,,,##, i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ##,,,##,,#
,###,,,#,# bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ,,#,,#,#,#
##,,#,,### abstract they are, the things, until     #,##,#####
,,#,##,#,, they cease to be things at all           ,##,##,,,,
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,,#,,##,,# are we just stacked triangles? there is  ,,##,###,,
,,##,#,#,# nothing i can do with triangles. they    #,#,##,,#,
,,#,###### can not shelter me in any meaningful     #####,#,##
#,###,,,,, sense.                                   #,,,,####,
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,,,#,##,,, and when i can't even anchor myself,     #,#,,##,,#
#,,###,#,, when i am nothing but the question, it   ####,#,#,#
,#,#,,###, feels like it can all slip through my    #,,,######
#####,#,,# fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ##,,#,,,,,
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