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..^==%*##@ now, usually  i feel good (maybe?),  but @##*%==^..
.^==%*##@# this time  of  confusion  also leads  to #@##*%==^.
..^==%*##@ all  analyzes ending  in  "useless" -  i @##*%==^..
...^==%*## was being  bothered  by  something  in a ##*%==^...
....^==%*# song  or movie or book,  so i think, how #*%==^....
.....^==%* would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the *%==^.....
......^==% purpose of  this process,  what does  it %==^......
.......^== consist  of...? and through  the process ==^.......
........^= more and  more  pieces  falls off  until =^........
.........^     i'm standing there with nothing.     ^.........
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.......... reductionist hell -                      ..........
.......... i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ..........
.........^ bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ^.........
........^= abstract they are, the things, until     =^........
.......^== they cease to be things at all           ==^.......
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.....^==%* are we just stacked triangles? there is  *%==^.....
....^==%*# nothing i can do with triangles. they    #*%==^....
...^==%*## can not shelter me in any meaningful     ##*%==^...
..^==%*##@ sense.                                   @##*%==^..
.^==%*##@#                                          #@##*%==^.
..^==%*##@ and when i can't even anchor myself,     @##*%==^..
...^==%*## when i am nothing but the question, it   ##*%==^...
....^==%*# feels like it can all slip through my    #*%==^....
.....^==%* fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    *%==^.....
......^==% was after that.                          %==^......
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