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....-:%&¤£ i was thinking to stop doing £¤&%:-....
.....-:%&¤ hallucinogens in the winter because i ¤&%:-.....
......-:%& do not know how useful they have been &%:-......
.......-:% anyway? i get so tense when i take %:-.......
........-: them, the last few times at least, and :-........
.........- there are plenty of side effects that i -.........
.......... really do not like, and there will be ..........
.......... associations with these mini-anxiety ..........
.......... attacks with random things that i ..........
.......... happen to see... for example, for a ..........
.......... long time i could not see a certain ..........
.......... kind of leaf without getting anxious ..........
.......... ... and i should avoid to ruin all the ..........
.......... seasons this way. ..........
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.........- hmm, recently my visual phenomena -.........
........-: increased or at least the burn-ins in :-........
.......-:% the eyes, and sometimes stuff is %:-.......
......-:%& breathing now, they did not do it &%:-......
.....-:%&¤ before. but maybe i just drank too much ¤&%:-.....
....-:%&¤£ coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all £¤&%:-....
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.....-:%&¤ it comes to me sometimes that shit, ¤&%:-.....
......-:%& what a load of concepts this "reality" &%:-......
.......-:% consists of, and how vague they are %:-.......
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.......... if i do not sleep for about twenty ..........
.......... hours, it will no longer be dark when i ..........
.......... close my eyes, not actually cev's ..........
.......... though, rather just fields and motion. ..........
.......... now and then i hear this sound (a real ..........
.......... sound (i think)), resembling some ..........
.......... "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. ..........
.......... and it is always unpleasant, i become ..........
.......... so stressful, but i think it has to do ..........
.......... with the novelty. i hope. ..........
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