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&&&....&.. I WAS THINKING TO STOP DOING &..&&..&&&
&&..&&...& HALLUCINOGENS IN THE WINTER BECAUSE I ........&&
&......&.. DO NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN .&&&&&&..&
..&&&&.... ANYWAY? I GET SO TENSE WHEN I TAKE ..&&&&....
&..&&..&&& THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND ...&&..&&&
........&& THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I &&......&&
.&&&&&&..& REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL BE &..&&&&...
..&&&&.... ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY ....&&..&&
...&&..&&& ATTACKS WITH RANDOM THINGS THAT I .&&.......
&&......&. HAPPEN TO SEE... FOR EXAMPLE, FOR A ....&&&&&&
&..&&&&... LONG TIME I COULD NOT SEE A CERTAIN &&&..&&&&&
....&&..&. KIND OF LEAF WITHOUT GETTING ANXIOUS &&....&&&&
.&&....... ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE ...&&..&&.
....&&&&&& SEASONS THIS WAY. &&........
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........&& HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA &&&&..&&&&
.&&&&&&..& INCREASED OR AT LEAST THE BURN-INS IN &&&....&&.
..&&&&.... THE EYES, AND SOMETIMES STUFF IS &&..&&....
&..&&..&&& BREATHING NOW, THEY DID NOT DO IT .......&&&
........&. BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH &&&&&&..&&
.&&&&&&... COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL .&&&&.....
..&&&&..&. THESE THINGS UP. ..&&..&&&&
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&&.......& IT COMES TO ME SOMETIMES THAT SHIT, &&........
...&&&&&.. WHAT A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" ...&&&&&&.
&&..&&&..& CONSISTS OF, AND HOW VAGUE THEY ARE &&..&&&&..
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&&.....&&. IF I DO NOT SLEEP FOR ABOUT TWENTY ..&&......
...&&&.... HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I &....&&&&.
&&..&..&&. CLOSE MY EYES, NOT ACTUALLY CEV'S ..&&..&&..
.......... THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. ..........
&&&&&&&&&& NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO. &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& AND IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I BECOME &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO DO &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE. &&&&&&&&&&
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