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##£@%*†«~. hallucinogens in the winter because i .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. do not know how useful they have been .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. anyway? i get so tense when i take .~«†*%@£##
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@%*«~..... there are plenty of side effects that i .....~«*%@
££%†~..... really do not like, and there will be .....~†%££
£@*«...... associations with these mini-anxiety ......«*@£
£££@%*†«~. attacks with random things that i .~«†*%@£££
##£@%*†«~. happen to see... for example, for a .~«†*%@£##
@%%%%*†«~. long time i could not see a certain .~«†*%%%%@
#£%†~~.... kind of leaf without getting anxious ....~~†%£#
##£@%*†«~. ... and i should avoid to ruin all the .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. seasons this way. .~«†*%@£##
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##£@%*†«~. the eyes, and sometimes stuff is .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. breathing now, they did not do it .~«†*%@£##
###£@*†«~. before. but maybe i just drank too much .~«†*@£###
@@@@%*†«~. coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all .~«†*%@@@@
@@@%*«.... these things up. ....«*%@@@
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#@%***†«~. it comes to me sometimes that shit, .~«†***%@#
##£@%*†«~. what a load of concepts this "reality" .~«†*%@£##
@@%†«..... consists of, and how vague they are .....«†%@@
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##£@%*†«~. if i do not sleep for about twenty .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. hours, it will no longer be dark when i .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. close my eyes, not actually cev's .~«†*%@£##
###@%*†«~. though, rather just fields and motion. .~«†*%@###
##£@%*†«~. now and then i hear this sound (a real .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. sound (i think)), resembling some .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. and it is always unpleasant, i become .~«†*%@£##
#@****†«~. so stressful, but i think it has to do .~«†****@#
#@%†~..... with the novelty. i hope. .....~†%@#
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