EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS    THINKING   TO    STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO  NOT KNOW  HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM,  THE LAST  FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF  SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO  NOT LIKE, AND  THERE WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM   THINGS   THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME I COULD  NOT  SEE  A  CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO  RUIN  ALL THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     
 INCREASED OR  AT  LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE   EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY   DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE.  BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND  MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A  LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL  NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER  JUST FIELDS  AND MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A  REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I  BECOME 
 SO  STRESSFUL, BUT I  THINK IT HAS TO DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.