Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should  Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.