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#¶&§%†~^..                    eh                    ..^~†%§&¶#
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&§%†~^.... i   was   thinking    to    stop   doing ....^~†%§&
§%†~^..... hallucinogens  in  the winter because  i .....^~†%§
%†~^...... do not know how  useful they  have  been ......^~†%
†~^....... anyway?  i get  so  tense  when  i  take .......^~†
~^........ them, the  last few times at least,  and ........^~
^......... there are plenty of side effects  that i .........^
.......... really do not  like,  and  there will be ..........
..........   associations with these mini-anxiety   ..........
.......... attacks   with  random  things   that  i ..........
.......... happen  to  see... for  example,  for  a ..........
.......... long time i  could  not  see  a  certain ..........
^......... kind  of  leaf  without getting  anxious .........^
~^........ ... and i should  avoid to ruin all  the ........^~
†~^.......             seasons this way.            .......^~†
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¶&§%†~^...    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     ...^~†%§&¶
#¶&§%†~^.. increased or  at  least the burn-ins  in ..^~†%§&¶#
##¶&§%†~^. the   eyes,   and   sometimes  stuff  is .^~†%§&¶##
#¶&§%†~^.. breathing   now,  they  did  not  do  it ..^~†%§&¶#
¶&§%†~^... before. but  maybe i just drank too much ...^~†%§&¶
&§%†~^.... coffee. maybe i'm scared and  making all ....^~†%§&
§%†~^.....             these things up.             .....^~†%§
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^......... it  comes  to  me  sometimes  that shit, .........^
.......... what a  load of concepts  this "reality" ..........
.......... consists  of,  and  how  vague  they are ..........
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^......... if  i  do  not  sleep for  about  twenty .........^
~^........ hours, it will no longer be dark when  i ........^~
†~^....... close  my   eyes,  not  actually   cev's .......^~†
%†~^...... though, rather  just fields  and motion. ......^~†%
§%†~^..... now and then i  hear this  sound (a real .....^~†%§
&§%†~^....     sound (i think)), resembling some    ....^~†%§&
¶&§%†~^...  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ...^~†%§&¶
#¶&§%†~^.. and  it is always  unpleasant, i  become ..^~†%§&¶#
##¶&§%†~^. so stressful, but i think  it  has to do .^~†%§&¶##
#¶&§%†~^..        with the novelty. i hope.         ..^~†%§&¶#
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