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&&¨¨&&&&&¨ - ¨¨&&&&&&¨¨
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&&&&¨¨&¨¨& I WAS THINKING TO STOP DOING &&¨¨&&¨¨&&
&&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ HALLUCINOGENS IN THE WINTER BECAUSE I ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&
&&¨¨&&&&&¨ DO NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN &&&&&&&&¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨&&&¨¨ ANYWAY? I GET SO TENSE WHEN I TAKE &&&&&&&¨¨¨
&&&&¨¨&¨¨& THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND &&&&&&¨¨&&
&&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨&&&&¨¨¨¨&
&&¨¨&&&&&& REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL BE ¨¨&&¨¨&&¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨&&&&& ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY &¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
&&&&¨¨&&&¨ ATTACKS WITH RANDOM THINGS THAT I ¨¨&&&&&&&&
&&&¨¨¨¨&¨¨ HAPPEN TO SEE... FOR EXAMPLE, FOR A ¨¨¨&&&&&&&
&&¨¨&&¨¨¨& LONG TIME I COULD NOT SEE A CERTAIN &&¨¨&&&&&&
&¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨¨ KIND OF LEAF WITHOUT GETTING ANXIOUS &¨¨¨¨&&&&&
¨¨&&&&¨¨¨& ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE ¨¨&&¨¨&&&&
¨¨¨&&¨¨&¨¨ SEASONS THIS WAY. &¨¨¨¨¨¨&&¨
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¨¨¨&&&&&&& - &¨¨&&¨¨&&¨
&&¨¨&&&&&& ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨&&&&& HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA ¨&&&&&&&&¨
&&&&¨¨&&&& INCREASED OR AT LEAST THE BURN-INS IN ¨¨&&&&&&¨¨
¨&&¨¨¨¨&&& THE EYES, AND SOMETIMES STUFF IS &¨¨&&&&¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨&&¨¨&¨ BREATHING NOW, THEY DID NOT DO IT ¨¨¨¨&&¨¨&&
¨&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH &&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨&&&&&& COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL &&¨¨&&&&&&
¨&&¨¨&&&&& THESE THINGS UP. ¨¨¨¨¨&&&&¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨&&&¨ &&&&¨¨&&¨¨
&&&&&¨¨&¨¨ - ¨&&¨¨¨¨¨¨&
&&&&¨¨¨¨¨& ¨¨¨¨&&&&¨¨
¨&&¨¨&&&¨¨ IT COMES TO ME SOMETIMES THAT SHIT, ¨&&¨¨&&¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨¨& WHAT A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&&
¨&&&&¨¨¨¨¨ CONSISTS OF, AND HOW VAGUE THEY ARE &&&&&&&¨¨¨
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¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&&& - ¨&&&&¨¨¨¨¨
&&&&&&¨¨&¨ ¨¨&&¨¨&&&&
&&&&&¨¨¨¨¨ IF I DO NOT SLEEP FOR ABOUT TWENTY ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&&&
&&&&¨¨&&&& HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I &&&&&&¨¨&&
&&&¨¨¨¨&&& CLOSE MY EYES, NOT ACTUALLY CEV'S ¨&&&&¨¨¨¨&
&&¨¨&&¨¨&¨ THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. ¨¨&&¨¨&&¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
&&&&&&&&&& SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO. &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& AND IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I BECOME &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO DO &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE. &&&&&&&&&&
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