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##@#&$^~^. do not know how useful they have been .^~^$@##
###@#&$~^. anyway? i get so tense when i take .^~$@###
##@#&$^~^. them, the last few times at least, and .^~^$@##
##@#&$^~^. there are plenty of side effects that i .^~^$@##
##&&&$^~^. really do not like, and there will be .^~^$&&#
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##&$^^.... the eyes, and sometimes stuff is ....^^$#
##@#&$^~^. breathing now, they did not do it .^~^$@##
#&&&&$^~^. before. but maybe i just drank too much .^~^$&&&
##@#&$^~^. coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all .^~^$@##
##@#&$^~^. these things up. .^~^$@##
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###@&$^~^. what a load of concepts this "reality" .^~^$&@###
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##@#&$^~^. if i do not sleep for about twenty .^~^$@##
##@#&$^~^. hours, it will no longer be dark when i .^~^$@##
##@#&$^~^. close my eyes, not actually cev's .^~^$@##
##&^^^^^^. though, rather just fields and motion. .^^^^^^#
##@#&$^~^. now and then i hear this sound (a real .^~^$@##
##@#&$^~^. sound (i think)), resembling some .^~^$@##
##&^^..... "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. .....^^#
###@&$^~^. and it is always unpleasant, i become .^~^$&@###
##@#&$^~^. so stressful, but i think it has to do .^~^$@##
##@#&$^~^. with the novelty. i hope. .^~^$@##
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