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&&,&&,&&,& i    was   thinking    to   stop   doing ,&,&,&&&&&
,&&,&&,&&, hallucinogens  in  the winter  because i &&&&&,,,,,
&,&&,&&,&& do  not know how  useful they  have been ,,,,&,,,,,
&&,&&,&&,, anyway?  i  get so  tense  when  i  take ,,,&&,,,,&
,&&,&&,&,& them,  the last  few times at least, and ,,&,&,,,&,
&,&&,&&&&, there  are plenty of side effects that i ,&&&&,,&&,
&&,&&,,,&, really  do  not  like, and there will be &,,,&,&,&&
,&&,&,,&&,   associations with these mini-anxiety   &,,&&&&&,,
&,&&&,&,&& attacks  with   random   things  that  i &,&,,,,&,,
&&,,&&&&,, happen to  see...  for  example,  for  a &&&,,,&&,&
,&,&,,,&,& long  time i could  not  see  a  certain ,,&,,&,&&,
&&&&,,&&&, kind of  leaf  without  getting  anxious ,&&,&&&,&,
,,,&,&,,&, ... and i should avoid  to ruin  all the &,&&,,&&&&
,,&&&&,&&&             seasons this way.            &&,&,&,,,&
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&&&,,,&,,,    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     &,,&,,,,&,
,,&,,&&,,& increased  or at least the  burn-ins  in &,&&,,,&&&
,&&,&,&,&, the   eyes,   and  sometimes   stuff  is &&,&,,&,,&
&,&&&&&&&, breathing  now,   they  did  not  do  it ,&&&,&&,&&
&&,,,,,,&& before. but maybe i just drank too  much &,,&&,&&,,
,&,,,,,&,& coffee. maybe  i'm scared and making all &,&,&&,&,&
&&,,,,&&&&             these things up.             &&&&,&&&&&
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&&&&&&&,,, it  comes to  me  sometimes  that  shit, &,,,&,,,&&
,,,,,,&,,& what a  load of  concepts this "reality" &,,&&,,&,,
,,,,,&&,&, consists of,  and  how  vague  they  are &,&,&,&&,,
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,&&,&&,,&, if  i  do  not  sleep  for about  twenty ,,,&&,&&,,
&,&&,&,&&, hours, it will no longer be dark when  i ,,&,&&,&,,
&&,&&&&,&& close  my  eyes,   not   actually  cev's ,&&&,&&&,&
,&&,,,&&,, though, rather  just fields  and motion. &,,&&,,&&,
&,&,,&,&,, now  and then i hear this sound  (a real &,&,&,&,&,
&&&,&&&&,,    sound (i think)), resembling some     &&&&&&&&&&
,,&&,,,&,&  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ,,,,,,,,,,
,&,&,,&&&& and it  is  always unpleasant,  i become ,,,,,,,,,,
&&&&,&,,,& so stressful, but i  think it has to  do ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,&&&,,&&        with the novelty. i hope.         ,,,,,,,,,&
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