EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING   TO    STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE I 
 DO  NOT KNOW  HOW USEFUL THEY  HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN I  TAKE 
 THEM,  THE LAST FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE  ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT LIKE,  AND  THERE  WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM  THINGS   THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I  COULD  NOT  SEE A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I  SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL  THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED OR  AT LEAST THE  BURN-INS  IN 
 THE  EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID   NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK  TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND  MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT  A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF, AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY  EYES,   NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. 
 NOW AND  THEN I  HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND  IT IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT I  THINK IT HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.