EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    WAS   THINKING   TO   STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE I 
 DO  NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL THEY  HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES AT  LEAST,  AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF  SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO  NOT LIKE,  AND  THERE WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM  THINGS   THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I  COULD NOT  SEE A  CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ...  AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL  THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR  AT LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE   EYES,  AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING   NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE  I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND  MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY   CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER JUST FIELDS AND  MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN  I HEAR  THIS SOUND (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND  IT IS ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT  I  THINK IT HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.