Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do  Not Know How  Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times At  Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid  To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.