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¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨& I WAS THINKING TO STOP DOING ¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨&
&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨& HALLUCINOGENS IN THE WINTER BECAUSE I ¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨& DO NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN ¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ ANYWAY? I GET SO TENSE WHEN I TAKE &¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨ THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND ¨&¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨ THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨¨&¨¨¨¨&¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨ REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL BE &¨¨&¨¨¨¨&¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨ ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY &&¨¨&¨¨¨¨&
&¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨¨ ATTACKS WITH RANDOM THINGS THAT I ¨&&¨¨&¨¨¨¨
¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨ HAPPEN TO SEE... FOR EXAMPLE, FOR A ¨&&&¨¨&¨¨¨
¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨& LONG TIME I COULD NOT SEE A CERTAIN ¨&¨&&¨¨&¨¨
¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨ KIND OF LEAF WITHOUT GETTING ANXIOUS ¨¨¨&&&¨¨&¨
¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨ ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE &¨¨&¨&&¨¨&
&¨¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨ SEASONS THIS WAY. &&¨¨¨&&&¨¨
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&&¨¨&¨¨¨¨& HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA ¨¨&¨&&¨¨¨&
¨&&¨¨&¨¨¨¨ INCREASED OR AT LEAST THE BURN-INS IN ¨¨¨¨&&&¨¨&
¨&&&¨¨&¨¨¨ THE EYES, AND SOMETIMES STUFF IS ¨¨¨¨&¨&&¨¨
¨&¨&&¨¨&¨¨ BREATHING NOW, THEY DID NOT DO IT ¨¨¨¨¨¨&&&¨
¨¨¨&&&¨¨&¨ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH ¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨&&
&¨¨&¨&&¨¨& COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&&
&&¨¨¨&&&¨¨ THESE THINGS UP. &¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨
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¨¨&¨&&¨¨¨& IT COMES TO ME SOMETIMES THAT SHIT, ¨¨&&&¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨&&&¨¨& WHAT A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" ¨¨&¨&&¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨&¨&&¨¨ CONSISTS OF, AND HOW VAGUE THEY ARE ¨¨¨¨&&&¨¨¨
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¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨&& ~ ¨¨¨¨¨¨&&&¨
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&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨&¨ IF I DO NOT SLEEP FOR ABOUT TWENTY ¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨&&
&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I ¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨&¨
&&&¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ CLOSE MY EYES, NOT ACTUALLY CEV'S ¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨¨
&¨&&¨¨¨¨¨¨ THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. &¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨&&&¨¨¨¨¨ NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL &&¨¨¨&¨¨¨¨
¨¨&¨&&¨¨¨¨ SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME &&&¨¨¨&¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨&&&¨¨¨ "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO. &¨&&¨¨¨&¨¨
¨¨¨¨&¨&&¨¨ AND IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I BECOME ¨¨&&&¨¨¨&¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨&&&¨ SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO DO ¨¨&¨&&¨¨¨&
&¨¨¨¨¨&¨&& WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE. &¨¨¨&&&¨¨¨
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