Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A  Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So  Stressful, But  I Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.