Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do Not Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time  I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.