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##@#&$^~^. do not know how useful they have been .^~^$&#@##
###@#&$~^. anyway? i get so tense when i take .^~$&#@###
##@#&$^~^. them, the last few times at least, and .^~^$&#@##
##@#&$^~^. there are plenty of side effects that i .^~^$&#@##
##&&&$^~^. really do not like, and there will be .^~^$&&&##
###&$~.... associations with these mini-anxiety ....~$&###
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##&$^^.... the eyes, and sometimes stuff is ....^^$&##
##@#&$^~^. breathing now, they did not do it .^~^$&#@##
#&&&&$^~^. before. but maybe i just drank too much .^~^$&&&&#
##@#&$^~^. coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all .^~^$&#@##
##@#&$^~^. these things up. .^~^$&#@##
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###@&$^~^. what a load of concepts this "reality" .^~^$&@###
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##@#&$^~^. if i do not sleep for about twenty .^~^$&#@##
##@#&$^~^. hours, it will no longer be dark when i .^~^$&#@##
##@#&$^~^. close my eyes, not actually cev's .^~^$&#@##
##&^^^^^^. though, rather just fields and motion. .^^^^^^&##
##@#&$^~^. now and then i hear this sound (a real .^~^$&#@##
##@#&$^~^. sound (i think)), resembling some .^~^$&#@##
##&^^..... "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. .....^^&##
###@&$^~^. and it is always unpleasant, i become .^~^$&@###
##@#&$^~^. so stressful, but i think it has to do .^~^$&#@##
##@#&$^~^. with the novelty. i hope. .^~^$&#@##
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