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§¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨ I   WAS    THINKING   TO   STOP    DOING ¨§¨¨¨¨§¨§§
§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§ HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE I §§¨¨¨§§§¨¨
§¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨ DO NOT KNOW  HOW  USEFUL THEY HAVE  BEEN ¨§¨¨§¨¨§¨§
§¨¨§§§§§§¨ ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE §§¨§§¨§§§¨
§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§ THEM, THE LAST FEW  TIMES AT  LEAST, AND ¨§§¨§§¨¨§§
§§§¨¨¨¨§¨¨ THERE ARE  PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I §¨§§¨§¨§¨¨
¨¨§¨¨¨§§¨¨ REALLY DO NOT LIKE,  AND  THERE  WILL BE §§¨§§§§§¨§
¨§§¨¨§¨§¨¨   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   ¨§§¨¨¨¨§§§
§¨§¨§§§§¨§ ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I §¨§¨¨¨§¨¨§
§§§§¨¨¨§§§ HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR A §§§¨¨§§¨§¨
¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨¨ LONG TIME  I  COULD NOT  SEE  A  CERTAIN ¨¨§¨§¨§§§§
¨¨§§¨§§¨¨§ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS ¨§§§§§¨¨¨§
¨§¨§§¨§¨§¨ ... AND I  SHOULD AVOID  TO RUIN ALL THE §¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§
§§§¨§§§§§§            SEASONS THIS WAY.             §¨¨¨§§¨§¨§
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¨§¨§¨¨¨¨§¨                     =                    §¨§§§¨¨¨§¨
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¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨§    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     ¨§¨§§¨§¨§§
¨¨§§¨§§¨§¨ INCREASED  OR AT LEAST  THE BURN-INS  IN §§§¨§§§§¨§
¨§¨§§¨§§§¨ THE   EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS ¨¨§§¨¨¨§§§
§§§¨§§¨¨§¨ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT ¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨§
¨¨§§¨§¨§§¨ BEFORE. BUT  MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH §§§§¨§§¨§¨
¨§¨§§§§¨§¨ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL ¨¨¨§§¨§§§¨
§§§¨¨¨§§§¨             THESE THINGS UP.             ¨¨§¨§§¨¨§¨
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¨§§¨§§¨§§§                     =                    §¨¨§§§§¨¨§
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§§¨§§¨§¨§§ IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES THAT  SHIT, §§§¨¨§§§¨¨
¨§§¨§§§§¨¨ WHAT  A LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" ¨¨§¨§¨¨§¨§
§¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨ CONSISTS  OF, AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE ¨§§§§¨§§§§
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¨§§§¨§¨§§§                    =                     §¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§
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§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨§ IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR ABOUT  TWENTY §§¨¨¨§¨§¨¨
§§§¨¨§§¨§¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I ¨§¨¨§§§§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§§¨ CLOSE  MY   EYES,   NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S §§¨§¨¨¨§§¨
¨§§§§§¨¨§§ THOUGH,  RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. ¨§§§¨¨§¨§¨
§¨¨¨¨§¨§¨¨ NOW  AND THEN I HEAR THIS  SOUND (A REAL §¨¨§¨§§§§¨
§¨¨¨§§§§¨¨     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    §¨§§§¨¨¨§§
§¨¨§¨¨¨§¨§  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  §§¨¨§¨¨§¨¨
§¨§§¨¨§§§¨ AND IT IS ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT,  I  BECOME ¨§¨§§¨§§¨§
§§¨§¨§¨¨§§ SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS  TO  DO §§§¨§§¨§§¨
¨§§§§§¨§¨§         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.        ¨¨§§¨§§¨§§
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