Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do Not Like, And  There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A  Load Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then  I Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So  Stressful,  But I Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.