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###£%%==~¨ kind  of  leaf  without getting  anxious ¨~==%%£###
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#%%===¨¨¨¨ breathing  now,  they  did  not   do  it ¨¨¨¨===%%#
###£%%==~¨ before. but maybe i just drank too  much ¨~==%%£###
###£%%==~¨ coffee.  maybe i'm scared and making all ¨~==%%£###
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###£%%==~¨ what a  load of concepts this  "reality" ¨~==%%£###
###£%%==~¨ consists  of,  and how  vague  they  are ¨~==%%£###
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###£%%==~¨ close  my   eyes,  not   actually  cev's ¨~==%%£###
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