Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times At  Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not  Like,  And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think  It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.