EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    WAS   THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO  NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL  THEY  HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM,  THE LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST,  AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS  THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT LIKE,  AND  THERE WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE... FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME I  COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I SHOULD AVOID  TO RUIN ALL  THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED OR  AT  LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE  EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING   NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT  MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING  ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT  A LOAD OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF, AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK  WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,   NOT  ACTUALLY   CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND  MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND  IT IS ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT  I THINK  IT HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.