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¨§§¨¨§§§¨¨                                          §¨§§¨§¨§¨§
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¨¨§§§§§¨§§                                          §¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨                    EH                    §§¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨§                                          §¨§§§§§¨¨¨
¨¨§¨§¨¨§§§                    ~                     ¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨¨
¨¨§§§§¨§¨¨                                          ¨§¨§¨¨¨§§¨
¨¨§¨¨¨§§§¨ I    WAS   THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING ¨§§§§¨¨§¨§
§¨§§¨¨§¨¨§ HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE I §§¨¨¨§¨§§§
¨§§¨§¨§§¨§ DO NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL  THEY HAVE  BEEN §¨§¨¨§§§¨¨
¨§¨§§§§¨§§ ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE WHEN  I  TAKE ¨§§§¨§¨¨§¨
¨§§§¨¨¨§§¨ THEM, THE  LAST FEW TIMES  AT LEAST, AND §§¨¨§§§¨§§
§§¨¨§¨¨§¨§ THERE ARE PLENTY  OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨¨§¨§¨¨§§¨
§¨§¨§§¨§§§ REALLY DO NOT  LIKE,  AND  THERE WILL BE §¨§§§§¨§¨§
¨§§§§¨§§¨¨   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   §§§¨¨¨§§§§
§§¨¨¨§§¨§¨ ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I §¨¨§¨¨§¨¨¨
§¨§¨¨§¨§§§ HAPPEN TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A ¨§¨§§¨§§¨¨
§§§§¨§§§¨¨ LONG  TIME  I  COULD  NOT  SEE A CERTAIN ¨§§§¨§§¨§¨
§¨¨¨§§¨¨§¨ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS ¨§¨¨§§¨§§§
¨§¨¨§¨§¨§§ ... AND  I SHOULD  AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE §§§¨§¨§§¨¨
¨§§¨§§§§§¨            SEASONS THIS WAY.             §¨¨§§§§¨§¨
¨§¨§§¨¨¨¨§                                          §§¨§¨¨¨§§§
§§§§¨§¨¨¨§                     ~                    §¨§§§¨¨§¨¨
§¨¨¨§§§¨¨§                                          ¨§§¨¨§¨§§¨
§§¨¨§¨¨§¨§    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     §§¨§¨§§§¨§
¨¨§¨§§¨§§§ INCREASED  OR AT  LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN ¨¨§§§§¨¨§§
§¨§§§¨§§¨¨ THE  EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES   STUFF  IS §¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨
§§§¨¨§§¨§¨ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY   DID  NOT  DO  IT §§§§¨¨§§§§
¨¨¨§¨§¨§§§ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK  TOO MUCH §¨¨¨§¨§¨¨¨
¨¨¨§§§§§¨¨ COFFEE.  MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL §§¨¨§§§§¨¨
¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨§¨             THESE THINGS UP.             §¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨
¨¨¨§§¨¨¨§§                                          §§§§§§¨¨§§
§¨¨§¨§¨¨§¨                     ~                    ¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨
§§¨§§§§¨§§                                          ¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§§
¨¨§§¨¨¨§§¨ IT COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, ¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨
¨¨§¨§¨¨§¨§ WHAT  A LOAD OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" ¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨§§§§¨§§§ CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE THEY  ARE ¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨§¨¨¨§§¨¨                                          §¨¨¨¨¨§§§§
§¨§§¨¨§¨§¨                    ~                     ¨§¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨
§§§¨§¨§§§§                                          ¨§§¨¨¨§§¨¨
§¨¨§§§§¨¨¨ IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT TWENTY ¨§¨§¨¨§¨§¨
§§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I §§§§§¨§§§§
¨¨§§§¨¨§§¨ CLOSE  MY   EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S §¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨
¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨§ THOUGH,  RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. §§¨¨¨§¨§¨¨
¨¨§§¨§§§§§ NOW AND  THEN I HEAR  THIS SOUND (A REAL §¨§¨¨§§§§¨
¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨¨    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     ¨§§§¨§¨¨¨§
§¨§§§¨§¨¨¨  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  ¨§¨¨§§§¨¨§
¨§§¨¨§§§¨¨ AND  IT  IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME §§§¨§¨¨§¨§
§§¨§¨§¨¨§¨ SO STRESSFUL, BUT  I THINK IT  HAS TO DO §¨¨§§§¨§§§
¨¨§§§§§¨§§        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.         §§¨§¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨                                          ¨¨§§§¨§¨§¨
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