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@%*«~..... i    was   thinking   to    stop   doing .....~«*%@
##£@%*†«~. hallucinogens  in the winter  because  i .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. do not  know how useful they  have  been .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. anyway?  i  get  so  tense when  i  take .~«†*%@£##
£%%†~..... them,  the last  few times at least, and .....~†%%£
@%*«~..... there are  plenty of side effects that i .....~«*%@
££%†~..... really  do not like,  and there  will be .....~†%££
£@*«......   associations with these mini-anxiety   ......«*@£
£££@%*†«~. attacks   with   random  things  that  i .~«†*%@£££
##£@%*†«~. happen  to  see...  for  example, for  a .~«†*%@£##
@%%%%*†«~. long  time  i could  not see  a  certain .~«†*%%%%@
#£%†~~.... kind of  leaf  without  getting  anxious ....~~†%£#
##£@%*†«~. ... and  i should avoid to ruin  all the .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~.            seasons this way.             .~«†*%@£##
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@%%***†«~.     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    .~«†***%%@
##£@%*†«~. increased or  at least  the  burn-ins in .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. the   eyes,   and  sometimes  stuff   is .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. breathing  now,   they  did  not  do  it .~«†*%@£##
###£@*†«~. before.  but maybe i just drank too much .~«†*@£###
@@@@%*†«~. coffee. maybe i'm  scared and making all .~«†*%@@@@
@@@%*«....             these things up.             ....«*%@@@
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#@%***†«~. it  comes  to me  sometimes  that  shit, .~«†***%@#
##£@%*†«~. what a  load of concepts this  "reality" .~«†*%@£##
@@%†«..... consists of,  and  how  vague  they  are .....«†%@@
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##£@%*†«~. if i  do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. hours, it will no longer be dark  when i .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. close   my  eyes,  not   actually  cev's .~«†*%@£##
###@%*†«~. though, rather just  fields and  motion. .~«†*%@###
##£@%*†«~. now and then i hear  this sound  (a real .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~.     sound (i think)), resembling some    .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~.  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  .~«†*%@£##
##£@%*†«~. and it is  always unpleasant,  i  become .~«†*%@£##
#@****†«~. so stressful, but i  think  it has to do .~«†****@#
#@%†~.....        with the novelty. i hope.         .....~†%@#
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