Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not  See A Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or  At  Least The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I  Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.