Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times At  Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I  Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.