Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times  At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do  Not Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And  Then I Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think  It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.