Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was    Thinking   To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.