Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The  Last Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.