Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was    Thinking   To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like,  And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think  It Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.