Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was    Thinking   To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not  Know How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I  Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.