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&§%†~^.... i was thinking to stop doing ....^~†%§&
§%†~^..... hallucinogens in the winter because i .....^~†%§
%†~^...... do not know how useful they have been ......^~†%
†~^....... anyway? i get so tense when i take .......^~†
~^........ them, the last few times at least, and ........^~
^......... there are plenty of side effects that i .........^
.......... really do not like, and there will be ..........
.......... associations with these mini-anxiety ..........
.......... attacks with random things that i ..........
.......... happen to see... for example, for a ..........
.......... long time i could not see a certain ..........
^......... kind of leaf without getting anxious .........^
~^........ ... and i should avoid to ruin all the ........^~
†~^....... seasons this way. .......^~†
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¶&§%†~^... hmm, recently my visual phenomena ...^~†%§&¶
#¶&§%†~^.. increased or at least the burn-ins in ..^~†%§&¶#
##¶&§%†~^. the eyes, and sometimes stuff is .^~†%§&¶##
#¶&§%†~^.. breathing now, they did not do it ..^~†%§&¶#
¶&§%†~^... before. but maybe i just drank too much ...^~†%§&¶
&§%†~^.... coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all ....^~†%§&
§%†~^..... these things up. .....^~†%§
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^......... it comes to me sometimes that shit, .........^
.......... what a load of concepts this "reality" ..........
.......... consists of, and how vague they are ..........
.......... ..........
.......... ~ ..........
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^......... if i do not sleep for about twenty .........^
~^........ hours, it will no longer be dark when i ........^~
†~^....... close my eyes, not actually cev's .......^~†
%†~^...... though, rather just fields and motion. ......^~†%
§%†~^..... now and then i hear this sound (a real .....^~†%§
&§%†~^.... sound (i think)), resembling some ....^~†%§&
¶&§%†~^... "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. ...^~†%§&¶
#¶&§%†~^.. and it is always unpleasant, i become ..^~†%§&¶#
##¶&§%†~^. so stressful, but i think it has to do .^~†%§&¶##
#¶&§%†~^.. with the novelty. i hope. ..^~†%§&¶#
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