EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    WAS   THINKING   TO    STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO  NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL  THEY HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE  LAST FEW TIMES  AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE  EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND  THERE  WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I 
 HAPPEN TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I  COULD NOT  SEE A  CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I  SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL  THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     
 INCREASED  OR AT LEAST THE  BURN-INS  IN 
 THE   EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY   DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I  JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING  ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A  LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL  NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS  AND  MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN  I HEAR THIS SOUND (A  REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND  IT  IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT I  THINK  IT HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.