Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours,  It Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.