Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do  Not Like,  And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.