Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The  Last Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At  Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.