Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was    Thinking   To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The  Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really  Do  Not  Like, And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.