Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The  Last Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do  Not Like,  And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long Time  I Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.