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,,,,&&,,&& DO NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN ,&&,,,,,,,
&&&,,,,,,& ANYWAY? I GET SO TENSE WHEN I TAKE ,,,,&&&&&&
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,,&&,,,,&& REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL BE ,&&&&,,&&&
,,,,,&&,,& ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY ,,&&,,,,&,
&&&&,,,,,, ATTACKS WITH RANDOM THINGS THAT I ,,,,,&&,,,
,&&,,&&&&, HAPPEN TO SEE... FOR EXAMPLE, FOR A &&&&,,,,&,
,,,,,,&&,, LONG TIME I COULD NOT SEE A CERTAIN ,&&,,&&,,,
&&&&&,,,,& KIND OF LEAF WITHOUT GETTING ANXIOUS ,,,,,,,,&&
&&&&,,&&,, ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE &&&&&&&,,&
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&&&,,,,&&& HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA &&,,,,&&&&
&&,,&&,,&& INCREASED OR AT LEAST THE BURN-INS IN &,,&&,,&&&
&,,,,,,,,& THE EYES, AND SOMETIMES STUFF IS ,,,,,,,,&&
,,&&&&&&,, BREATHING NOW, THEY DID NOT DO IT ,&&&&&&,,&
,,,&&&&,,& BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH ,,&&&&,,,,
&&,,&&,,,, COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL ,,,&&,,&&&
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,,,,,,&&&& WHAT A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" ,,,&&,,,,&
,&&&&,,&&& CONSISTS OF, AND HOW VAGUE THEY ARE &&,,,,&&,,
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&&&,,&&&&& IF I DO NOT SLEEP FOR ABOUT TWENTY ,,,,,,&&,,
,&,,,,&&&& HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I &&&&&,,,,,
,,,&&,,&&, CLOSE MY EYES, NOT ACTUALLY CEV'S &&&&,,&&&&
,&,,,,,,,, THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. ,&&,,,,&&,
,,,&&&&&&& NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL ,,,,&&,,,,
&&,,&&&&&& SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME &&&,,,,&&&
&,,,,&&&&, "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO. &&,,&&,,&&
,,&&,,&&,, AND IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I BECOME ,,,,,,,,,&
,,,,,,,,,& SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO DO &&&&&&&&,,
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