.....&&&&& ..........
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&......&.. &..&&&&&&&
..&&&&...& ....&&&&&&
...&&..&.. eh .&&..&&&&.
&&........ ......&&..
...&&&&&&& = .&&&&.....
&&..&&&&&& ..&&..&&&&
&....&&&&& i was thinking to stop doing &......&&&
..&&..&&&. hallucinogens in the winter because i ..&&&&..&&
.......&.. do not know how useful they have been ...&&.....
&&&&&&...& anyway? i get so tense when i take &&....&&&&
&&&&&..&.. them, the last few times at least, and &..&&..&&&
&&&&...... there are plenty of side effects that i ........&&
&&&..&&&&& really do not like, and there will be &&&&&&&..&
&&....&&&& associations with these mini-anxiety &&&&&&....
...&&..&&& attacks with random things that i &&&&&..&&.
&&......&& happen to see... for example, for a &&&&......
...&&&&..& long time i could not see a certain &&&..&&&&.
&&..&&.... kind of leaf without getting anxious &&....&&..
.......&&. ... and i should avoid to ruin all the &..&&.....
&&&&&&.... seasons this way. ......&&&&
&&&&&..&&& .&&&&..&&&
&&&&....&& = ..&&....&&
&&&..&&... &....&&..&
&&......&& hmm, recently my visual phenomena ..&&......
...&&&&... increased or at least the burn-ins in &....&&&&.
&&..&&..&& the eyes, and sometimes stuff is ..&&..&&..
.......... breathing now, they did not do it ..........
&&&&&&&&&& before. but maybe i just drank too much &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&& these things up. &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&&. &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&&.. = &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&&... &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&&..&& it comes to me sometimes that shit, &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&&..... what a load of concepts this "reality" &&&&&&&&&&
&&&&..&&&& consists of, and how vague they are &&&&&&&&&&
&&&....&&. &&&&&&&&&&
&&..&&.... = &&&&&&&&&&
&......&&. &&&&&&&&&&
..&&&&.... if i do not sleep for about twenty &&&&&&&&&&
...&&..&&. hours, it will no longer be dark when i &&&&&&&&&.
&&........ close my eyes, not actually cev's &&&&&&&&..
...&&&&&&& though, rather just fields and motion. &&&&&&&...
&&..&&&&&& now and then i hear this sound (a real &&&&&&..&&
&....&&&&& sound (i think)), resembling some &&&&&....&
..&&..&&&& "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. &&&&..&&..
&......&&& and it is always unpleasant, i become &&&......&
..&&&&..&& so stressful, but i think it has to do &&..&&&&..
&..&&....& with the novelty. i hope. &....&&..&
......&&.. ..&&......
&&&&&..... .....&&&&&
&&&&..&&&& &&&&..&&&&
&&&....&&. .&&....&&&
&&..&&.... ....&&..&&