EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    WAS   THINKING   TO   STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE I 
 DO  NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL  THEY  HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE  LAST  FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE  ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT  LIKE, AND  THERE WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I COULD  NOT SEE  A  CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I  SHOULD  AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED OR AT  LEAST  THE BURN-INS  IN 
 THE  EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES   STUFF  IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO  MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A  LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY   EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER JUST  FIELDS AND  MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN  I HEAR  THIS SOUND (A REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT  IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT I  THINK IT HAS  TO DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.