Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not  Know How Useful They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not  Like,  And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To Ruin  All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.