Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not  Know How  Useful They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times  At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.