Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times At  Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do Not  Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At  Least The Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This Sound  (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think  It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.