Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But  I Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.