Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not Know How Useful  They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really  Do  Not Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I  Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.