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§%%%*:~¨¨¨ i   was    thinking   to   stop    doing ¨¨¨~:*%%%§
@§%***:«~¨ hallucinogens  in the  winter because  i ¨~«:***%§@
§*«~~¨¨¨¨¨ do not know  how  useful  they have been ¨¨¨¨¨~~«*§
#§§*««~~¨¨ anyway?  i  get  so  tense  when  i take ¨¨~~««*§§#
#§*«~¨¨¨¨¨ them, the last  few times  at least, and ¨¨¨¨¨~«*§#
##@#§%:«~¨ there are plenty  of side effects that i ¨~«:%§#@##
§%%*««~~~¨ really do  not like,  and  there will be ¨~~~««*%%§
§%::«~¨¨¨¨   associations with these mini-anxiety   ¨¨¨¨~«::%§
@#%:«¨¨¨¨¨ attacks  with   random  things  that   i ¨¨¨¨¨«:%#@
@@#§%*:«~¨ happen  to  see... for  example,  for  a ¨~«:*%§#@@
#§§***:«~¨ long time  i  could  not see  a  certain ¨~«:***§§#
##@§%*:«~¨ kind  of leaf  without  getting  anxious ¨~«:*%§@##
@§%:«~¨¨¨¨ ... and i should  avoid to ruin all  the ¨¨¨¨~«:%§@
§*:«~¨¨¨¨¨            seasons this way.             ¨¨¨¨¨~«:*§
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@@#§%*:«~¨    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     ¨~«:*%§#@@
##@§%*:«~¨ increased  or at least  the  burn-ins in ¨~«:*%§@##
#@#§%*:«~¨ the   eyes,  and   sometimes  stuff   is ¨~«:*%§#@#
##@#§*:«~¨ breathing  now,  they  did  not  do   it ¨~«:*§#@##
#@#§%*:«~¨ before. but maybe i just drank too  much ¨~«:*%§#@#
###§%*:«~¨ coffee. maybe i'm scared and making  all ¨~«:*%§###
##@#%*:«~¨             these things up.             ¨~«:*%#@##
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@@#§%*:«~¨ it  comes  to  me  sometimes  that shit, ¨~«:*%§#@@
§*:««««¨¨¨ what  a  load of concepts this "reality" ¨¨¨««««:*§
##@#§%*«~¨ consists  of, and  how  vague  they  are ¨~«*%§#@##
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##%*:::«~¨ if i  do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty ¨~«:::*%##
@@#§%*:«~¨ hours, it will no longer  be dark when i ¨~«:*%§#@@
#§%*««~~¨¨ close  my   eyes,  not   actually  cev's ¨¨~~««*%§#
#@#§%*:«~¨ though, rather  just fields  and motion. ¨~«:*%§#@#
#§*«¨¨¨¨¨¨ now and  then i hear this sound  (a real ¨¨¨¨¨¨«*§#
§%:~¨¨¨¨¨¨     sound (i think)), resembling some    ¨¨¨¨¨¨~:%§
§%*:««««~¨  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ¨~««««:*%§
§%*«¨¨¨¨¨¨ and  it  is always  unpleasant, i become ¨¨¨¨¨¨«*%§
#@#§%*:«~¨ so  stressful,  but i think it has to do ¨~«:*%§#@#
§%%*:~~~~¨        with the novelty. i hope.         ¨~~~~:*%%§
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