EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS    THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO  NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL  THEY HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM,  THE LAST FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY  OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO  NOT LIKE,  AND  THERE WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH   RANDOM  THINGS  THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE... FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I  COULD  NOT SEE A  CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I  SHOULD  AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR  AT  LEAST THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE   EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO   IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST  DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE.  MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A  LOAD OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT  WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY   EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER JUST FIELDS AND  MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I HEAR  THIS SOUND  (A REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND  IT  IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT  I THINK IT HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.