Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At Least,  And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I  Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.