Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.