EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING    TO    STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE  WINTER BECAUSE I 
 DO NOT KNOW  HOW USEFUL  THEY  HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY? I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST  FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE  ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY  DO NOT LIKE,  AND THERE WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM   THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE... FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG TIME  I  COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ...  AND  I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR AT LEAST  THE  BURN-INS IN 
 THE   EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF  IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST  DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED  AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK  WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY   EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER  JUST FIELDS  AND MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A  REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT IS  ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT I THINK IT HAS  TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.