Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load  Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This  Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.