Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ...  And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then  I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.