Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not Know How Useful  They  Have  Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At Least,  And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It  Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.