Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How  Useful They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.