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,,,,&&&&&& DO NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN ,,,&&&,,&&
,&&,,&&&&& ANYWAY? I GET SO TENSE WHEN I TAKE &&,,&,,,,,
,,,,,,&&&& THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND &,,,,,&&&&
,&&&&,,&&& THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ,,&&&,,&&,
,,&&,,,,&& REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL BE ,,,&,,,,,,
&,,,,&&,,& ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY &&,,,&&&&&
,,&&,,,,,, ATTACKS WITH RANDOM THINGS THAT I &,,&,,&&&&
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&&&&,,&&&, LONG TIME I COULD NOT SEE A CERTAIN &&&&&&,,,,
,&&,,,,&,, KIND OF LEAF WITHOUT GETTING ANXIOUS ,&&&&,,&&,
,,,,&&,,,& ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE ,,&&,,,,,,
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,,,&&,,&,, HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA &,,,,,,,,,
&&,,,,,,,& INCREASED OR AT LEAST THE BURN-INS IN ,,&&&&&&&&
&,,&&&&&,, THE EYES, AND SOMETIMES STUFF IS ,,,&&&&&&&
,,,,&&&,,, BREATHING NOW, THEY DID NOT DO IT &&,,&&&&&&
,&&,,&,,&& BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH ,,,,,&&&&,
,,,,,,,,,& COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL &&&&,,&&,,
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&&,,,,,,,, WHAT A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" ,,&&,,,,&&
&,,&&&&&&& CONSISTS OF, AND HOW VAGUE THEY ARE ,,,,,&&,,&
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&,,&&,,&,, IF I DO NOT SLEEP FOR ABOUT TWENTY &&&&&,,&&&
,,,,,,,,,, HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I &&&&,,,,&&
,&&&&&&&&& CLOSE MY EYES, NOT ACTUALLY CEV'S &&&,,&&,,,
,,&&&&&&&, THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. ,&,,,,,,&&
,,,&&&&&,, NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL ,,,&&&&,,,
&&,,&&&,,& SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME &&,,&&,,&&
&,,,,&,,,, "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO. &,,,,,,,,&
,,&&,,,&&& AND IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I BECOME ,,&&&&&&,,
&,,,,&,,&& SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO DO &,,&&&&,,&
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