Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It Has  To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.