Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really  Do Not Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load  Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And  Then  I Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think  It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.