Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not  Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See  A Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.