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&&,,,,,,&& the feeling fo "somethign is  wrong with &&,,&,,,,&
,&&,,,,,&, the world"    - in a very profound  way, &&&,,&,,,&
,&&&,,,,,,   in a doubt-your-every-qualia way, it   &,&&,,&,,,
,&,&&,,,,, never dissipated.  just grew used to it, ,,&&&,,&,,
,,,&&&,,,,                numb to it                ,,&,&&,,&,
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&,,,,&&&,,  maybe even filtered subconsciously to   &&,,&,&&,,
,&,,,&,&&,      relieve the growing tension and     ,&&,,,&&&,
,,&,,,,&&&             disillusionment              ,&&&,,&,&&
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&&,,&,,,,& that's  perhaps  the  draw  of  stories, ,,,&&&,,&,
&&&,,&,,,&  mysteries and "magiscal realism", most  &,,&,&&,,,
&,&&,,&,,, horror   stories   even   -   there   is &&,,,&&&,,
,,&&&,,&,,   confirmation. something really .is.    &&&,,&,&&,
,,&,&&,,&, there. what it is is  not that important &,&&,,,&&&
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