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,,@,@,,@,, the feeling fo "somethign is  wrong with @@,@,@,@,@
,@@,@,@@,@ the  world"  -  in a very  profound way, ,@,@,@,@,@
,,@,@,,@,,   in a doubt-your-every-qualia way, it   @@,@,@,@,@
,@@,@,@@,@ never  dissipated. just grew used to it, ,@,@,@,@,@
,,@,@,,@,,                numb to it                @@,@,@,@,@
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,,@,@,,@,,   maybe even filtered subconsciously to  @@,@,@,@,@
,@@,@,@@,@     relieve the growing tension and      ,@,@,@,@,@
,,@,@,,@,,              disillusionment             @@,@,@,@,@
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,,@,@,,@,, that's  perhaps  the  draw  of  stories, @@,@,@,@,@
,@@,@,@@,@  mysteries and "magiscal realism", most  ,@,@,@,@,@
,,@,@,,@,, horror   stories   even   -   there   is @@,@,@,@,@
,@@,@,@@,@    confirmation. something really ~is~   ,@,@,@,@,@
,,@,@,,@,, there. what it is is not  that important @@,@,@,@,@
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