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.:-:=@#@##                                          ##@#@=:-:.
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...:-:=@#@ now, usually  i  feel good (maybe?), but @#@=:-:...
..:-:=@#@# this time of  confusion  also  leads  to #@#@=:-:..
.:-:=@#@## all analyzes ending  in  "useless"  -  i ##@#@=:-:.
..:-:=@#@# was being  bothered  by something  in  a #@#@=:-:..
...:-:=@#@ song or movie or book, so  i think,  how @#@=:-:...
..:-:=@#@# would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the #@#@=:-:..
.:-:=@#@## purpose  of this  process,  what does it ##@#@=:-:.
..:-:=@#@# consist of...?  and through  the process #@#@=:-:..
...:-:=@#@ more  and more  pieces  falls off  until @#@=:-:...
..:-:=@#@#     i'm standing there with nothing.     #@#@=:-:..
.:-:=@#@##                                          ##@#@=:-:.
..:-:=@#@# reductionist hell -                      #@#@=:-:..
...:-:=@#@ i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        @#@=:-:...
..:-:=@#@# bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    #@#@=:-:..
.:-:=@#@## abstract they are, the things, until     ##@#@=:-:.
..:-:=@#@# they cease to be things at all           #@#@=:-:..
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..:-:=@#@# are we just stacked triangles? there is  #@#@=:-:..
.:-:=@#@## nothing i can do with triangles. they    ##@#@=:-:.
..:-:=@#@# can not shelter me in any meaningful     #@#@=:-:..
...:-:=@#@ sense.                                   @#@=:-:...
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.:-:=@#@## and when i can't even anchor myself,     ##@#@=:-:.
..:-:=@#@# when i am nothing but the question, it   #@#@=:-:..
...:-:=@#@ feels like it can all slip through my    @#@=:-:...
..:-:=@#@# fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    #@#@=:-:..
.:-:=@#@## was after that.                          ##@#@=:-:.
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