always tears  in my eyes when using  the 
                 machine.                 
                                          
 i  don't  think it's  hormonal overload. 
 there's  no grief  or  joy as  my  water 
 rolls down  my face.  i  notice  nothing 
 until my  chin  is wet. wipe it off with 
 the back of  my hand. but i usually keep 
            crying for a while.           
                                          
 i theorize  some  kind of  resonance  in 
  the neural interface; some saturation   
 signal being tripped?  the connection is 
        imperfect and often induces       
  single-sense hallucinations. acute but  
 hollow  hunger.  sand  grains  under  my 
  fingertips. strange tastes and scents.  
                                          
 and  i  mean,  maybe  it  isn't  to  far 
 fetched  that  something like  that  can 
  cause autonomous reactions? dry mouth.  
    finger spasms. opened tear ducts.