party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she  steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be   contacted  by  some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per second -  they  ask me:  "when 
 you  said  the  world egg was your ideal 
 body  type,  did you mean  it"? i answer 
 "not really, but i  can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom