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,&,&,&&&,&         ,,,,,-$# dreams #$-,,,,,         &&,,&,,&&&
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,,,,&,&,,&                  ,,^#^,,                 &&&,&&&,&,
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,,&,,,&&&,                   ,,,                    ,&,&,&,,&,
,&&,,&,,&,                 ,^&###&^,                &&&&&&,&&,
&,&,&&,&&,                    ,,,                   ,,,,,&&,&,
&&&&,&&,&&                                          ,,,,&,&&&&
,,,&&,&&,&         internal visionary state         ,,,&&&,,,,
,,&,&&,&&,                                          ,,&,,&,,,,
,&&&,&&,&&            the spirit travels            ,&&,&&,,,,
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&,&,&&,&&,             ,,:$########$:,,             &&,&&&,,,&
&&&&,&&,&,                   ,-,                    ,&&,,&,,&,
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,,&,&&,,&&                  a cost                  &&&&,&&,,&
,&&&,&,&,,                (anecdote)                ,,,&&,&,&&
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&,&,,,,&&,                    ,,                    ,&&&,,,&&,
&&&,,,&,&&                                          &,,&,,&,&&
,,&,,&&&,, i  wake  suddenly,  and  for  a   second &,&&,&&&,,
,&&,&,,&,& everything  is  completely calm and dead &&,&&,,&,,
&,&&&,&&&& silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,&&,&,&&,,
&&,,&&,,,, slowly   start  to   piece  together  my &,&&&&,&,&
,&,&,&,,,&        consciousness and my body.        &&,,,&&&&,
&&&&&&,,&,                                          ,&,,&,,,&,
,,,,,&,&&& then  the   fear  hits  me  and  i  feel &&,&&,,&&&
,,,,&&&,,&   acutely sick. something is -wrong-.    ,&&,&,&,,&
,,,&,,&,&,                                          &,&&&&&,&&
,,&&,&&&&,                    ,,                    &&,,,,&&,&
,&,&&,,,&&                                          ,&,,,&,&&&
&&&,&,,&,& there are circles  and crosses inscribed &&,,&&&,,&
,,&&&,&&&, all  over my vision, pressing in,  being ,&,&,,&,&,
,&,,&&,,&& almost hostile. i can feel  them squirm, &&&&,&&&&,
&&,&,&,&,,    their internal logic changing and     ,,,&&,,,&,
,&&&&&&&,& grinding trenches in my mind.  it's like ,,&,&,,&&&
&,,,,,,&&& language, sentences i can't  hide  from, ,&&&&,&,,&
&,,,,,&,,, forcefully  transcribed in my mind,  and &,,,&&&,&,
&,,,,&&,,,           doing damage there.            &,,&,,&&&&
&,,,&,&,,,                                          &,&&,&,,,,
&,,&&&&,,, then i  realize  i  can't  hear anything &&,&&&,,,&
&,&,,,&,,&     because there's something there      ,&&,,&,,&,
&&&,,&&,&,    already, droning everything out, a    &,&,&&,&&&
,,&,&,&&&, rapid  melody,  almost  caustic in  it's &&&&,&&,,,
,&&&&&,,&,        particular microtonality.         ,,,&&,&,,,
&,,,,&,&&,                                          ,,&,&&&,,,
&,,,&&&,&&                    ,,                    ,&&&,,&,,&
&,,&,,&&,,                                          &,,&,&&,&,
&,&&,&,&,& my surroundings  are entirely calm. it's &,&&&,&&&&
&&,&&&&&&&              almost mocking.             &&,,&&,,,,
,&&,,,,,,,                                          ,&,&,&,,,&
&,&,,,,,,, i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must try  to &&&&&&,,&&
&&&,,,,,,, escape. to crawl on the floor  searching ,,,,,&,&,,
,,&,,,,,,, relief, such  is  my nature. turning the ,,,,&&&&,&
,&&,,,,,,,    lights on does nothing... getting     ,,,&,,,&&&
&,&,,,,,,&  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,,&&,,&,,&
&&&,,,,,&& does  noting... but  time does  -  after ,&,&,&&,&,
,,&,,,,&,,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     &&&&&,&&&&
,&&,,,&&,& doubting  anything of  this  happened in ,,,,&&,,,&
&,&,,&,&&&             the first place.             ,,,&,&,,&&
&&&,&&&,,&                                          ,,&&&&,&,,
,,&&,,&,&& my eyes are still tense though,  scared. ,&,,,&&&,&
,&,&,&&&,& i   don't    know    what    to    make. &&,,&,,&&&
&&&&&,,&&&                                          ,&,&&,&,,&
,,,,&,&,,&              but i'm tired.              &&&,&&&,&,
,,,&&&&,&,                                          ,,&&,,&&&,
,,&,,,&&&,                    ,                     ,&,&,&,,&,
,&&,,&,,&,                  ,,-:-,,                 &&&&&&,&&,
&,&,&&,&&,                    ,                     ,,,,,&&,&,
&&&&,&&,&&                                          ,,,,&,&&&&
,,,&&,&&,& this can happen if you  wander too  far, ,,,&&&,,,,
,,&,&&,&&, i guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless ,,&,,&,,,,
,&&&,&&,&&              when dreaming?              ,&&,&&,,,,
&,,&&,&&,& i imagine  a prick on the  nose,  that's &,&&,&,,,,
&,&,&&,&&, what these are.  like you  do with a cat &&,&&&,,,&
&&&&,&&,&, who  comes to close to your  sandwich... ,&&,,&,,&,
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