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&&,&,,,,&, ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*    *~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ &,&&&,,&,&
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&,&,,&,,&,                    **                    &&,&,&&&,,
&&&&,&&,&&                                          ,,&&&&,,&,
&,,,&&,&&,  in a black rubbery sleep i dream about  ,,&,,,&,&&
,&,,&,&&,&         cold boiling asphalt and         ,,&&,,&&&,
,&&,&&&,&&       crimson emergency flares...        &,&,&,&,,&
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&,&,&&&&&& ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*  *~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ,&&,,,,,&,
&&&&&,,,,,                    **                    &&,&,,,,&&
,,,,,&,,,,                                          &,&&&,,,&,
,,,,,&&,,,   they were tearing down statues, and    &&&,,&,,&&
&,,,,&,&,,  bellowing their manifest, in the rain,  ,,,&,&&,&,
&&,,,&&&&,               in the dark,               ,,,&&&,&&&
,,&,,&,,,&                                          ,,,&,,&&,,
,,&&,&&,,&     and something followed me out, a     &,,&&,&,&,
,,&,&&,&,&  yearning. a memory of being touched by  &&,&,&&&&&
&,&&&,&&&&    a ray from a raspberry sun. still     ,,&&&&,,,,
&&&,,&&,,,   there, everything would be gritty and  ,,&,,,&,,,
&,,&,&,&,,   full of tar. rain upon it. but then a  ,,&&,,&&,,
&&,&&&&&&,  few bright and colorful anomalies. and  ,,&,&,&,&,
&,&&,,,,,&            a promise for more.           &,&&&&&&&&
,&&,&,,,,&                                          &&&,,,,,,,
,&,&&&,,,&  like waking up with a business card in  ,,,&,,,,,,
,&&&,,&,,&              your pocket...              &,,&&,,,,,
,&,,&,&&,&                                          &&,&,&,,,,
,&&,&&&,&&   a feather boa wrapped around a velvet  ,,&&&&&,,,
,&,&&,,&&,  lizard, surfacing for milliseconds at a ,,&,,,,&,,
,&&&,&,&,&    time, calling, tugging at my arms.    ,,&&,,,&&,
,&,,&&&&&&    begging me to sink back down and be   &,&,&,,&,&
&&&,&,,,,, with them, with their kind. easy to get  ,&&&&&,&&&
,,,&&&,,,,   washed away from the tether, from the  &&,,,,&&,,
,,,&,,&,,,               way back up.               &,&,,,&,&,
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&,,&,&&,&,                                          &,,,&,&,,,
&&,&&&,&&& but i cannot go. the consequences would  &&,,&&&&,,
&,&&,,&&,,   be too large. especially since i'm in  &,&,&,,,&,
&&&,&,&,&,    the work mill and they've got their   ,&&&&&,,&&
,,,&&&&&&&   eyes on me already. the feeling will   &&,,,,&,&,
,,,&,,,,,,  wane, and i will miss it, and cease to  &,&,,,&&&&
&,,&&,,,,,        understand. like every day.       ,&&&,,&,,,
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&,&&&&&,,,                    **                    ,,&,&&&,&,
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,,,&,,,&&, ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*    *~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ &,&,,&,&,,
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,,,&,&,&&&                    **                    ,&,,&&,,,&
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