party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as  i 
 start  to unzip my pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien]  who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per second  -  they  ask me: "when 
 you said  the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body  type, did you mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but  i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom