party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as  i 
 start to  unzip my pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per  second  - they  ask me: "when 
 you said  the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type, did you  mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but i can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom