party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage, and  as  i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she  steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien]  who  would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second  - they ask me:  "when 
 you  said  the world egg was your  ideal 
 body type,  did  you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really,  but i  can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the  encounter and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom