party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of  dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start  to unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of  the  shower   and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien] who  would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second -  they  ask me: "when 
 you said  the world egg  was your  ideal 
 body type, did you  mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom