party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage, and  as  i 
 start to  unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times per second -  they ask  me:  "when 
 you said the  world egg  was  your ideal 
 body type,  did you mean it"?  i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom