Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ...  And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A  Load Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This Sound  (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.