Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At Least,  And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not Like,  And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I  Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or  At  Least The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A  Load Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.