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,&,&,&,&,, always tears in my  eyes when using  the ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,&                 machine.                 ,&,&,&,&,&
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,&,&,&,&,& i don't think  it's  hormonal  overload. ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,, there's no grief  or  joy  as  my  water ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,& rolls down  my  face. i  notice  nothing ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,, until my chin is wet.  wipe  it off with ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,& the back of my hand. but i usually  keep ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,,            crying for a while.           ,&,&,&,&,&
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,&,&,&,&,, i  theorize some  kind  of resonance  in ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,&  the neural interface; some saturation   ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,, signal  being tripped? the connection is ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,&        imperfect and often induces       ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,,  single-sense hallucinations. acute but  ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,& hollow  hunger.  sand  grains  under  my ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,,  fingertips. strange tastes and scents.  ,&,&,&,&,&
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,&,&,&,&,, and  i  mean,  maybe  it  isn't  to  far ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,& fetched  that  something  like that  can ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,,  cause autonomous reactions? dry mouth.  ,&,&,&,&,&
,&,&,&,&,&     finger spasms. opened tear ducts.    ,&,&,&,&,&
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