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&.&.&.&&&. in my first  madness i  gave names to my &...&&..&.
&&&&&&..&. made up  patron saints and  there was  a &..&.&.&&&
.....&.&&& lot of surrounding beliefs  and i  had a &.&&&&&...
....&&&..& reincarnation system all made out and  i &&....&...
...&..&.&.        started smoking cigarettes        .&...&&...
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.&..&&..&. me - my angsty, depressed,               .&&.&.&.&&
&&.&.&.&&.      angry little self                   &.&&&&&&.&
.&&&&&&.&. musho - likes colours                    &&.....&&.
&.....&&&& vidmi - god of forsaken writing          .&....&.&.
&....&.... implements                               &&...&&&&&
&...&&.... naftakin - black cloak and substrate     .&..&.....
&..&.&...&            for various made up worlds    &&.&&....&
&.&&&&..&& wanja - actually i don't know this       .&&.&...&.
&&...&.&.&         person. something about          &.&&&..&&&
.&..&&&&&&         "leaves"? or is wanja            &&..&.&...
&&.&.....&         the "final fox"? (kills you)     .&.&&&&...
.&&&....&& heaven - the world                       &&&...&..&
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