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,,.~\*$#¶#             ,.\$¶######¶$\.,             #¶#$*\~.,,
,.~\*$#¶##         ,,,..~$# dreams #$~..,,,         ##¶#$*\~.,
,,.~\*$#¶#             ,.\$¶######¶$\.,             #¶#$*\~.,,
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,,,,,,.~\*                ,*#####*,                 *\~.,,,,,,
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,,,,,,.~\*                                          *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$         internal visionary state         $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,.~\*$#                                          #$*\~.,,,,
,,,.~\*$#¶            the spirit travels            ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,.~\*$#¶#                                          #¶#$*\~.,,
,.~\*$#¶##             ,.\$¶######¶$\.,             ##¶#$*\~.,
,,.~\*$#¶#                    ,~,                   #¶#$*\~.,,
,,,.~\*$#¶                                          ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,,,.~\*$#                  a cost                  #$*\~.,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$                (anecdote)                $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\*                                          *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.~\                    ..                    \~.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\*                                          *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$ i   wake  suddenly,  and  for  a  second $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,.~\*$# everything is  completely calm  and dead #$*\~.,,,,
,,,.~\*$#¶ silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,.~\*$#¶# slowly  start   to  piece  together   my #¶#$*\~.,,
,.~\*$#¶##        consciousness and my body.        ##¶#$*\~.,
,,.~\*$#¶#                                          #¶#$*\~.,,
,,,.~\*$#¶ then  the  fear   hits  me  and  i  feel ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,,,.~\*$#    acutely sick. something is ~wrong~.   #$*\~.,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$                                          $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\*                    ,,                    *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.~\                                          \~.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\* there are circles and crosses  inscribed *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$ all  over my vision,  pressing in, being $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,.~\*$# almost hostile. i  can feel them squirm, #$*\~.,,,,
,,,.~\*$#¶    their internal logic changing and     ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,.~\*$#¶# grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like #¶#$*\~.,,
,.~\*$#¶## language,  sentences i can't  hide from, ##¶#$*\~.,
,,.~\*$#¶# forcefully  transcribed in my mind,  and #¶#$*\~.,,
,,,.~\*$#¶            doing damage there.           ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,,,.~\*$#                                          #$*\~.,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$ then  i realize  i  can't  hear anything $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\*      because there's something there     *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.~\    already, droning everything out, a    \~.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\* rapid  melody, almost  caustic  in  it's *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$         particular microtonality.        $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,.~\*$#                                          #$*\~.,,,,
,,,.~\*$#¶                    ..                    ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,.~\*$#¶#                                          #¶#$*\~.,,
,.~\*$#¶## my surroundings are entirely calm.  it's ##¶#$*\~.,
,,.~\*$#¶#             almost mocking.              #¶#$*\~.,,
,,,.~\*$#¶                                          ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,,,.~\*$# i  feel  helpless,  but i  must  try  to #$*\~.,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$ escape. to crawl on the floor  searching $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\* relief, such is my  nature.  turning the *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,,,.~\    lights on does nothing... getting     \~.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\*  outside does nothing... drinking water  *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$ does  noting...  but time  does  - after $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,.~\*$#     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     #$*\~.,,,,
,,,.~\*$#¶ doubting  anything  of this happened  in ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,.~\*$#¶#             the first place.             #¶#$*\~.,,
,.~\*$#¶##                                          ##¶#$*\~.,
,,.~\*$#¶# my eyes are still  tense though, scared. #¶#$*\~.,,
,,,.~\*$#¶ i    don't   know    what    to    make. ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,,,.~\*$#                                          #$*\~.,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$              but i'm tired.              $*\~.,,,,,
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,,,,,,,.~\                    ,                     \~.,,,,,,,
,,,,,,.~\*                  ..~\~..                 *\~.,,,,,,
,,,,,.~\*$                     ,                    $*\~.,,,,,
,,,,.~\*$#                                          #$*\~.,,,,
,,,.~\*$#¶ this  can happen if you  wander too far, ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,.~\*$#¶# i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so reckless #¶#$*\~.,,
,.~\*$#¶##              when dreaming?              ##¶#$*\~.,
,,.~\*$#¶# i  imagine a prick  on the  nose, that's #¶#$*\~.,,
,,,.~\*$#¶ what these are. like  you do with a  cat ¶#$*\~.,,,
,,,,.~\*$# who comes to close  to  your sandwich... #$*\~.,,,,
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