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,,,,,,,,,,             ,-^*@######@*^-,             ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,         ,,,--=*# dreams #*=--,,,         ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,             ,-^*@######@*^-,             ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,,                   ,-,                    ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,-                 ,†#####†,                -,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,-=                   ,-,                    =-,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,-=^                                          ^=-,,,,,,,
,,,,,,-=^†         internal visionary state         †^=-,,,,,,
,,,,,-=^†*                                          *†^=-,,,,,
,,,,-=^†*#            the spirit travels            #*†^=-,,,,
,,,-=^†*#@                                          @#*†^=-,,,
,,-=^†*#@#             ,-^*@######@*^-,             #@#*†^=-,,
,-=^†*#@##                    ,=,                   ##@#*†^=-,
,,-=^†*#@#                                          #@#*†^=-,,
,,,-=^†*#@                  a cost                  @#*†^=-,,,
,,,,-=^†*#                (anecdote)                #*†^=-,,,,
,,,,,-=^†*                                          *†^=-,,,,,
,,,,,,-=^†                    --                    †^=-,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,-= i  wake  suddenly,  and  for  a   second =-,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,- everything  is completely calm and  dead -,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, slowly   start  to   piece  together  my ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,        consciousness and my body.        ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, then  the  fear  hits  me   and  i  feel ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,    acutely sick. something is =wrong=.   ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,-                    ,,                    -,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,-=                                          =-,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,-=^ there are circles and crosses  inscribed ^=-,,,,,,,
,,,,,,-=^† all  over my  vision, pressing in, being †^=-,,,,,,
,,,,,-=^†* almost  hostile. i can feel them squirm, *†^=-,,,,,
,,,,-=^†*#     their internal logic changing and    #*†^=-,,,,
,,,-=^†*#@ grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like @#*†^=-,,,
,,-=^†*#@# language,  sentences i can't hide  from, #@#*†^=-,,
,-=^†*#@## forcefully  transcribed in my mind,  and ##@#*†^=-,
,,-=^†*#@#            doing damage there.           #@#*†^=-,,
,,,-=^†*#@                                          @#*†^=-,,,
,,,,-=^†*# then i  realize  i can't  hear  anything #*†^=-,,,,
,,,,,-=^†*      because there's something there     *†^=-,,,,,
,,,,,,-=^†    already, droning everything out, a    †^=-,,,,,,
,,,,,,,-=^ rapid  melody,  almost caustic  in  it's ^=-,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,-=        particular microtonality.         =-,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,,                    --                    ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, my surroundings  are entirely calm. it's ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,             almost mocking.              ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, i  feel helpless,  but  i  must  try  to ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, escape. to crawl on  the floor searching ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,- relief, such is my  nature. turning  the -,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,-=    lights on does nothing... getting     =-,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,-=^  outside does nothing... drinking water  ^=-,,,,,,,
,,,,,,-=^† does  noting... but  time  does  - after †^=-,,,,,,
,,,,,-=^†*     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     *†^=-,,,,,
,,,,-=^†*# doubting  anything  of this happened  in #*†^=-,,,,
,,,-=^†*#@             the first place.             @#*†^=-,,,
,,-=^†*#@#                                          #@#*†^=-,,
,-=^†*#@## my eyes  are still tense though, scared. ##@#*†^=-,
,,-=^†*#@# i   don't    know    what    to    make. #@#*†^=-,,
,,,-=^†*#@                                          @#*†^=-,,,
,,,,-=^†*#              but i'm tired.              #*†^=-,,,,
,,,,,-=^†*                                          *†^=-,,,,,
,,,,,,-=^†                    ,                     †^=-,,,,,,
,,,,,,,-=^                  --=^=--                 ^=-,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,-=                    ,                     =-,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, this can happen if  you wander too  far, ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, i guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,              when dreaming?              ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, i imagine a prick  on the  nose,  that's ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, what  these are. like you do with a  cat ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, who comes to  close to  your sandwich... ,,,,,,,,,,
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