¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨         =*=====~~~¨  ¨~~~=====*=         ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨         =                      =         ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨         = MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF =         ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨         =                      =         ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨         =*=====~~~¨  ¨~~~=====*=         ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨ CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A    ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                THE TREES.                ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE    ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE  ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                TELEVISION.               ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT  ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                 SO MUCH.                 ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨            =====~~¨ ¨~~=====             ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨            =====~~¨ ¨~~=====             ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨               SOME ON FIRE.              ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨              SHE WAS HERE!               ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§