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¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A    §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST   §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                THE TREES.                §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE   §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨    ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER  §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨     WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD      §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨               TELEVISION.                ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                 SO MUCH.                 ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨             «««««~~¨ ¨~~«««««            §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨      SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨             HAD BEEN REAL...             §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨             «««««~~¨ ¨~~«««««            ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨    CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨              SOME ON FIRE.               ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING!  ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨              SHE WAS HERE!               §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§