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#,#,,,,#,#  i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing #,##,,#,##
###,,,###, crimes mostly from or in my beloved and  ##,#,###,,
,,#,,#,,##  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   ,####,,#,#
,##,##,#,#    barn. we lived just outside town, a   #,,,#,####
#,##,#####   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   #,,###,,,#
##,##,,,,#   the barn was placed so you could just  #,#,,#,,#,
,##,#,,,#,  make out the surrounding fields through ###,##,###
#,###,,##,                the trees.                ,,##,##,,#
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,#,#####,,    my car was black and loud, both the   ###,######
###,,,,#,,   engine and the way the parts didn't    ,,##,,,,,#
,,#,,,##,,     really stick together. i took my     ,#,#,,,,#,
,##,,#,#,, crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  ####,,,##,
#,#,####,,   eternal dark that seemed to surround   ,,,#,,#,#,
####,,,#,#  us. she seemed to cast this veil over   ,,##,#####
,,,#,,###,  everything. her black skirt reached to  ,#,##,,,,,
,,##,#,,#,   her knees but then somehow also back   ###,#,,,,,
,#,###,###  around, enveloping all my memories of   ,,###,,,,,
###,,##,,,            our time together.            ,#,,#,,,,,
,,#,#,#,,,                                          ##,##,,,,#
,######,,#   there was blood everywhere. sometimes  ,##,#,,,##
#,,,,,#,#,   the blood was her red lipstick or her  #,###,,#,#
#,,,,#####  checkered shirt. she was on television. ##,,#,###,
#,,,#,,,,,      we did crime, and we made weird     ,#,###,,##
#,,##,,,,, structures in the barn, tall pillars of  ###,,#,#,,
#,#,#,,,,#  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  ,,#,####,#
#####,,,##  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  ,###,,,##,
,,,,#,,#,,  and drink there and she would go in the #,,#,,#,##
,,,##,##,#               television.                #,##,###,#
,,#,##,###                                          ##,##,,###
,###,##,,#  and then the sun came out, and she went ,##,#,#,,#
#,,##,#,##  away. everything changed... i yearned,  #,#####,##
#,#,####,#   and the world became dull around me.   ##,,,,##,,
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,,,#,,#,,,    i stopped doing crime, except when    ##,,#####,
,,##,##,,,  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  ,#,#,,,,#,
,#,##,#,,,  they were allright, moulded in place,   ####,,,##,
###,###,,,   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ,,,#,,#,#,
,,##,,#,,#                 so much.                 ,,##,#####
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,,####,,,,                                          ##,###,#,,
,#,,,#,,,#  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ,##,,###,,
##,,##,,##    memories of her. not so much of me    #,#,#,,#,,
,#,#,#,#,, either, from the time we were together.  #####,##,#
########,#  my mother said i kept to myself in the  ,,,,##,###
,,,,,,,##,           barn, or in the car.           ,,,#,##,,,
,,,,,,#,##                                          ,,###,#,,,
,,,,,###,#     sometimes i could still see her      ,#,,###,,,
,,,,#,,###    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    ##,#,,#,,,
,,,##,#,,#     everything was black then, for a     ,###,##,,,
,,#,###,#,  moment. i remembered her laugh and knew #,,##,#,,,
,###,,####   we had done crimes together, that it   #,#,###,,,
#,,#,#,,,#             had been real...             ####,,#,,,
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#,,#####,,    i died by getting shot in the head    #,,#,,,##,
#,#,,,,#,#  while ramming the fence to a military   #,##,,#,##
###,,,###,   facility. by this time they had been   ##,#,###,,
,,#,,#,,##   chasing me for days. i lost control    ,####,,#,#
,##,##,#,#   over the car, crashed it into a rock   #,,,#,####
#,##,#####    wall and flew out the windshield.     #,,###,,,#
##,##,,,,#                                          #,#,,#,,#,
,##,#,,,#,   and then i got up, and looked around.  ###,##,###
#,###,,##,   it was dark, where it previously had   ,,##,##,,#
##,,#,#,##    been a bright day. around me where    ,#,##,#,#,
,#,#####,,   dozens of crashed cars, all my car,    ###,######
###,,,,#,,               some on fire.              ,,##,,,,,#
,,#,,,##,,                                          ,#,#,,,,#,
,##,,#,#,,       the ground was sticky, red.        ####,,,##,
#,#,####,,                                          ,,,#,,#,#,
####,,,#,#   and then i realized that i knew this   ,,##,#####
,,,#,,###,     darkness. i knew the way the sky     ,#,##,,,,,
,,##,#,,#,  touched the ground. this was her doing! ###,#,,,,,
,#,###,###               she was here!              ,,###,,,,,
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