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,,&,&,,&&, now, usually  i feel  good (maybe?), but ,&,,,&,&,,
,&&&&,&,&& this  time  of confusion  also leads  to &&,,&&&&,,
&,,,&&&&,, all  analyzes  ending in "useless"  -  i ,&,&,,,&,,
&,,&,,,&,& was  being  bothered  by something  in a &&&&,,&&,&
&,&&,,&&&, song  or movie or book, so i  think, how ,,,&,&,&&,
&&,&,&,,&, would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the ,,&&&&&,&&
,&&&&&,&&& purpose of  this  process,  what does it ,&,,,,&&,,
&,,,,&&,,, consist of...?  and  through the process &&,,,&,&,,
&,,,&,&,,& more  and more pieces  falls  off  until ,&,,&&&&,&
&,,&&&&,&,     i'm standing there with nothing.     &&,&,,,&&,
&,&,,,&&&,                                          ,&&&,,&,&&
&&&,,&,,&, reductionist hell -                      &,,&,&&&,,
,,&,&&,&&& i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        &,&&&,,&,&
,&&&,&&,,& bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    &&,,&,&&&&
&,,&&,&,&, abstract they are, the things, until     ,&,&&&,,,&
&,&,&&&&&& they cease to be things at all           &&&,,&,,&,
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,,,&,,,,,, are we just stacked triangles? there is  ,&&&,&&,,,
,,&&,,,,,, nothing i can do with triangles. they    &,,&&,&,,,
,&,&,,,,,, can not shelter me in any meaningful     &,&,&&&,,,
&&&&,,,,,& sense.                                   &&&&,,&,,,
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,,&&,,,&,& and when i can't even anchor myself,     ,,&&&,&,&&
,&,&,,&&&, when i am nothing but the question, it   ,&,,&&&&,&
&&&&,&,,&, feels like it can all slip through my    &&,&,,,&&&
,,,&&&,&&& fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ,&&&,,&,,,
,,&,,&&,,, was after that.                          &,,&,&&,,,
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