when i was  in  eight  grade i decided i 
 was dead.  my spirit  had left  my body, 
             never to return.             
                                          
 i  remember sitting in my parents car on 
 a cloudy,  watery  day, getting  a  ride 
 somewhere.  it  felt  like i  had solved 
 some  great  puzzle.   i've  solved   no 
            puzzles since then.           
                                          
  instead, i've been mindlessly piloting  
 this body around. i still give it  life, 
 somehow. like a golem, and i  try not to 
 care  too  much,   but  i   do.  it's  a 
   contaminated golem, this one. purity   
 clouded  by  my  echo.  afterglow of  my 
                  spirit.