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&&&&&,&&&&                 ,,*@*,,                  ,,,,&&&,&&
,,,,,&&,,,             ,~†£@######@£†~,             &,,,&,,&&,
,,,,,&,&,,         ,,,~~=£# dreams #£=~~,,,         ,&,,&&,&,&
&,,,,&&&&,             ,~†£@######@£†~,             ,&&,&,&&&&
,&,,,&,,,&                  ,,*@*,,                 &&,&&&&,,,
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,&&&&&&&&&                 ,*&###&*,                &&,&&&,&,&
&&,,,,,,,,                   ,~,                    &,&&,,&&&&
,,&,,,,,,,                                          &&&,&,&,,,
,,&&,,,,,,         internal visionary state         ,,,&&&&&,,
,,&,&,,,,,                                          &,,&,,,,&,
,,&&&&,,,,            the spirit travels            ,&,&&,,,&&
&,&,,,&,,,                                          &&&&,&,,&,
&&&&,,&&,,             ,~†£@######@£†~,             ,,,,&&&,&&
,,,,&,&,&,                    ,=,                   ,,,,&,,&&,
,,,,&&&&&&                                          ,,,,&&,&,&
&,,,&,,,,,                  a cost                  &,,,&,&&&&
,&,,&&,,,,                (anecdote)                &&,,&&&,,,
,&&,&,&,,,                                          ,,&,&,,&,,
,&,&&&&&,,                    ~~                    &,&&&&,&&,
,&&&,,,,&,                                          &&&,,,&&,&
&&,,&,,,&& i  wake  suddenly,  and   for  a  second ,,,&,,&,&&
,,&,&&,,&, everything is completely  calm and  dead ,,,&&,&&&,
,,&&&,&,&& silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i ,,,&,&&,,&
&,&,,&&&&, slowly  start   to  piece  together   my &,,&&&,&,&
,&&&,&,,,&        consciousness and my body.        &&,&,,&&&&
&&,,&&&,,&                                          &,&&&,&,,,
&,&,&,,&,& then  the  fear  hits  me  and   i  feel &&&,,&&&,,
&&&&&&,&&&    acutely sick. something is =wrong=.   ,,,&,&,,&,
&,,,,,&&,,                                          &,,&&&&,&&
,&,,,,&,&,                    ,,                    ,&,&,,,&&,
,&&,,,&&&&                                          &&&&&,,&,&
&&,&,,&,,, there are  circles and crosses inscribed ,,,,,&,&&&
,,&&&,&&,, all over my vision, pressing  in,  being &,,,,&&&,,
,,&,,&&,&, almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, &&,,,&,,&,
,,&&,&,&&&    their internal logic changing and     ,,&,,&&,&&
&,&,&&&&,, grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like &,&&,&,&&,
&&&&&,,,&, language, sentences i  can't  hide from, ,&&,&&&&,&
,,,,,&,,&& forcefully transcribed  in my mind,  and &&,&&,,,&&
&,,,,&&,&,           doing damage there.            ,,&&,&,,&,
&&,,,&,&&&                                          &,&,&&&,&&
,,&,,&&&,, then  i realize  i can't  hear  anything ,&&&&,,&&,
,,&&,&,,&,     because there's something there      &&,,,&,&,&
&,&,&&&,&&    already, droning everything out, a    ,,&,,&&&&&
,&&&&,,&&, rapid  melody, almost  caustic  in  it's ,,&&,&,,,,
,&,,,&,&,&        particular microtonality.         &,&,&&&,,,
,&&,,&&&&&                                          ,&&&&,,&,,
,&,&,&,,,,                    ~~                    ,&,,,&,&&,
,&&&&&&,,,                                          ,&&,,&&&,&
&&,,,,,&,, my surroundings are entirely calm.  it's ,&,&,&,,&&
,,&,,,,&&,              almost mocking.             &&&&&&&,&,
,,&&,,,&,&                                          ,,,,,,,&&&
&,&,&,,&&& i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must  try to &,,,,,,&,,
&&&&&&,&,, escape. to crawl on  the floor searching ,&,,,,,&&,
&,,,,,&&&, relief,  such is my  nature. turning the &&&,,,,&,&
,&,,,,&,,&     lights on does nothing... getting    &,,&,,,&&&
&&&,,,&&,&  outside does nothing... drinking water  &&,&&,,&,,
&,,&,,&,&& does  noting...  but  time does  - after &,&&,&,&&,
&&,&&,&&&,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ,&&,&&&&,&
,,&&,&&,,& doubting  anything of  this  happened in ,&,&&,,,&&
&,&,&&,&,&             the first place.             &&&&,&,,&,
&&&&&,&&&&                                          ,,,,&&&,&&
,,,,,&&,,, my eyes are still tense though,  scared. &,,,&,,&&,
,,,,,&,&,, i   don't    know    what    to    make. ,&,,&&,&,&
&,,,,&&&&,                                          ,&&,&,&&&&
,&,,,&,,,&              but i'm tired.              &&,&&&&,,,
,&&,,&&,,&                                          &,&&,,,&,,
,&,&,&,&,&                     ,                    ,&&,&,,&&,
,&&&&&&&&&                 ~~=†=~~                  &&,&&&,&,&
&&,,,,,,,,                     ,                    &,&&,,&&&&
,,&,,,,,,,                                          &&&,&,&,,,
,,&&,,,,,, this can happen if  you wander  too far, ,,,&&&&&,,
,,&,&,,,,, i  guess?  i shouldn't  be  so  reckless &,,&,,,,&,
,,&&&&,,,,              when dreaming?              ,&,&&,,,&&
&,&,,,&,,, i imagine  a  prick on the  nose, that's &&&&,&,,&,
&&&&,,&&,, what these are. like you  do with a  cat ,,,,&&&,&&
,,,,&,&,&, who comes to  close to your  sandwich... ,,,,&,,&&,
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