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,@,@,@,@,, now,  usually i feel good  (maybe?), but @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ this  time  of  confusion also leads  to @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, all  analyzes ending  in "useless"  -  i @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ was being  bothered  by  something  in a @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, song or movie  or book, so i  think, how @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, purpose  of  this process, what  does it @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ consist  of...? and  through the process @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, more  and more pieces  falls  off  until @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@     i'm standing there with nothing.     @,@,,@,@,@
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,@,@,@,@,@ reductionist hell -                      @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, abstract they are, the things, until     @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ they cease to be things at all           @,@,,@,@,@
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,@,@,@,@,@ are we just stacked triangles? there is  @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, nothing i can do with triangles. they    @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ can not shelter me in any meaningful     @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, sense.                                   @,@,@@,@,@
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,@,@,@,@,, and when i can't even anchor myself,     @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ when i am nothing but the question, it   @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, feels like it can all slip through my    @,@,@@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    @,@,,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,, was after that.                          @,@,@@,@,@
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