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«^........ crimes mostly from or in my beloved and ........^«
^......... trusted car, and sometimes my mothers .........^
«^........ barn. we lived just outside town, a ........^«
*«^....... grove at the end of a dirt road, and .......^«*
%*«^...... the barn was placed so you could just ......^«*%
£%*«^..... make out the surrounding fields through .....^«*%£
@£%*«^.... the trees. ....^«*%£@
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#¶@£%*«^.. really stick together. i took my ..^«*%£@¶#
¶@£%*«^... crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the ...^«*%£@¶
@£%*«^.... eternal dark that seemed to surround ....^«*%£@
£%*«^..... us. she seemed to cast this veil over .....^«*%£
%*«^...... everything. her black skirt reached to ......^«*%
*«^....... her knees but then somehow also back .......^«*
«^........ around, enveloping all my memories of ........^«
^......... our time together. .........^
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*«^....... there was blood everywhere. sometimes .......^«*
%*«^...... the blood was her red lipstick or her ......^«*%
£%*«^..... checkered shirt. she was on television. .....^«*%£
@£%*«^.... we did crime, and we made weird ....^«*%£@
¶@£%*«^... structures in the barn, tall pillars of ...^«*%£@¶
#¶@£%*«^.. dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires ..^«*%£@¶#
##¶@£%*«^. and fairy lights. we would sleep there .^«*%£@¶##
#¶@£%*«^.. and drink there and she would go in the ..^«*%£@¶#
¶@£%*«^... television. ...^«*%£@¶
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£%*«^..... and then the sun came out, and she went .....^«*%£
%*«^...... away. everything changed... i yearned, ......^«*%
*«^....... and the world became dull around me. .......^«*
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^......... i stopped doing crime, except when .........^
«^........ necessarry. things somehow seemed like ........^«
*«^....... they were allright, moulded in place, .......^«*
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¶@£%*«^... i searched for her, but nobody had any ...^«*%£@¶
@£%*«^.... memories of her. not so much of me ....^«*%£@
£%*«^..... either, from the time we were together. .....^«*%£
%*«^...... my mother said i kept to myself in the ......^«*%
*«^....... barn, or in the car. .......^«*
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^......... sometimes i could still see her .........^
«^........ flashing by on the tv in the barn. ........^«
*«^....... everything was black then, for a .......^«*
%*«^...... moment. i remembered her laugh and knew ......^«*%
£%*«^..... we had done crimes together, that it .....^«*%£
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£%*«^..... while ramming the fence to a military .....^«*%£
%*«^...... facility. by this time they had been ......^«*%
*«^....... chasing me for days. i lost control .......^«*
«^........ over the car, crashed it into a rock ........^«
^......... wall and flew out the windshield. .........^
«^........ ........^«
*«^....... and then i got up, and looked around. .......^«*
%*«^...... it was dark, where it previously had ......^«*%
£%*«^..... been a bright day. around me where .....^«*%£
@£%*«^.... dozens of crashed cars, all my car, ....^«*%£@
¶@£%*«^... some on fire. ...^«*%£@¶
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##¶@£%*«^. the ground was sticky, red. .^«*%£@¶##
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¶@£%*«^... and then i realized that i knew this ...^«*%£@¶
@£%*«^.... darkness. i knew the way the sky ....^«*%£@
£%*«^..... touched the ground. this was her doing! .....^«*%£
%*«^...... she was here! ......^«*%
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